My prayer is still not answered.instead things become worse I think.once again I acted like foolish.I request Jesus Christ to forgive me,and give me more chances.I am surrendering to Lord's will. But I will keep praying to Lord for what I desire...For God has put the desire in my heart to marry by sending Avi in my life..but because of my stupidity and ungratefulness I lost him.I request for forgiveness. But still I think I lack God's wisdom because whenever I get the opportunity to solve,I ruin everything,my way of dealing is so immature that in spite of praying,I act hyper and Make the situation worse.So I request Jesus Christ my Lord to give me wisdom to handle the situation.Give me more chances to show my love and trust.. Jesus please make Avi come back to me,I know I have hurt him again but please Lord forgive me..Please soften Avi's heart.. Jesus please him in this testing..my heart is at pain,my mind is in a mess,m disappointed with me Lord..Please do something for me..Guard my steps,m your child please sort out everything in my Life... Please solve my and Avi's problems.. intervene Lord, defend me my Jesus help..I need u Jesus I really need u..Do something for me,I feel alone but I know u r wid me.. I feel m not worthy of anything but I still I want u Lord my savior Jesus Christ...Help....Amen