I've just about lost my faith and

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I've just about lost my faith and given up. I almost hate the day I became a Christian now since that day I've lost my house, my car, most of what I have and what's left is in storage about to be taken anyway. My finance lost her job too! And all follow Christians do is just give reasons to justify it. Book of Job or God tears you down to bring you back up or he never gives more than you can't handle and on and on and with reasons why it's ok that my path to follow God has officially made my live worse. I haven't had one peaceful full night sleep in years!! And my fellow Christians seem to be the most selfish people I've started to know. When someone can make a real financial blessing they pass the buck and refer you to sources that can help. When my church knew I was sick and about too lose everything I merely got referred to the nearest homeless shelter. I can go on but I'm so sick literally with my cystic fibrosis and just life I already tried to kill myself and my fiance stopped me mid action. I'm so done I seriously hate being Christian and just about consider it a life ruiner nothing is fun anymore everything feels like a sin and always have to ask for forgiveness for thinking for looking for doing this and that and that and this I seriously don't even enjoy life anymore!! And I've tried I've prayed and prayed and prayed and PRAYED I've read the bible I've studied and things get worse and worse I don't even got gas to go to work to make a check yeah I was finally given a job 6 cities away!!!! And my big v8 car which my drive used too only be 5 minutes to work has become 50 minutes!! At least before my life Ihad a great job nice place to live reliable car and was seriously enjoying life hardly ever had to worry about money heck I was helping others!! I'm so done I don't care anymore no Christian lends me a real hand just pass the buck to someone else and despite all this I still believe in there love of God and the resurrection of Jesus Christ. But I really don't think I can do this anymore. I Litterly have no money to get work and I'm sure a bunch of people are going to point out solutions because that's easier and free than giving actual money. No family can help I can't get a loan OF ANY kind I have NOTHING left to sell except my soul. I HATE BECOMIBG CHRISTIAN SUPPOSED TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER. If you want to pray I can keep my faith please do. Pray I can at least have the money to get Rio work and have something for food. Pray we get there money tho get us current on bills. Or just pray I can end myself quickly and peacefully.

Welcome...thanks for sharing.

From this side of the 'glass'...not to judge nor offend, but to share from the heart.

Too often we tend to attempt to turn to God when life becomes overwhelming,

when in fact we should have been more obedient long ago, this I now know.

For several decades I lived my life on my own selfish agenda, there were good

times, but many bad times, and some terrible times. My life hit bottom from too

many selfish choices...fear is a terrible place to be...believe it. It is not for me

to question the way of the Holy Spirit...but a profound personal experience,

now of two decades past,,,my life was forever changed. Praise God.

This I know...we must pass the test, to learn of the lesson. Let us be ever

mindful, we are meant to survive, the hardships of life, we learn from, or not.

I learned to accept the things I can' t change...and change the things I can.

Ones own self can be changed, but only by the one in the mirror...and know

this and know it well, the journey will not be easy, and without end.

There is power of the Holy Spirit...so long as one works at it...it works!

In Jesus name, let us pray you find what it is that is needed in your life. Amen

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I've just about lost my faith and given up. I almost hate the day I became a Christian now since that day I've lost my house, my car, most of what I have and what's left is in storage about to be taken anyway. My finance lost her job too! And all follow Christians do is just give reasons to justify it. Book of Job or God tears you down to bring you back up or he never gives more than you can't handle and on and on and with reasons why it's ok that my path to follow God has officially made my live worse. I haven't had one peaceful full night sleep in years!! And my fellow Christians seem to be the most selfish people I've started to know. When someone can make a real financial blessing they pass the buck and refer you to sources that can help. When my church knew I was sick and about too lose everything I merely got referred to the nearest homeless shelter. I can go on but I'm so sick literally with my cystic fibrosis and just life I already tried to kill myself and my fiance stopped me mid action. I'm so done I seriously hate being Christian and just about consider it a life ruiner nothing is fun anymore everything feels like a sin and always have to ask for forgiveness for thinking for looking for doing this and that and that and this I seriously don't even enjoy life anymore!! And I've tried I've prayed and prayed and prayed and PRAYED I've read the bible I've studied and things get worse and worse I don't even got gas to go to work to make a check yeah I was finally given a job 6 cities away!!!! And my big v8 car which my drive used too only be 5 minutes to work has become 50 minutes!! At least before my life Ihad a great job nice place to live reliable car and was seriously enjoying life hardly ever had to worry about money heck I was helping others!! I'm so done I don't care anymore no Christian lends me a real hand just pass the buck to someone else and despite all this I still believe in there love of God and the resurrection of Jesus Christ. But I really don't think I can do this anymore. I Litterly have no money to get work and I'm sure a bunch of people are going to point out solutions because that's easier and free than giving actual money. No family can help I can't get a loan OF ANY kind I have NOTHING left to sell except my soul. I HATE BECOMIBG CHRISTIAN SUPPOSED TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER. If you want to pray I can keep my faith please do. Pray I can at least have the money to get Rio work and have something for food. Pray we get there money tho get us current on bills. Or just pray I can end myself quickly and peacefully.

My friend and brother in Christ.  I understand.  I am experiencing similar in my own demise.  But, there is something within me that keeps me going.  There is something within me that keeps encouraging me to keep the faith.  In this season, I am working on reconnecting with Christ and developing that level of intimacy in him that I once had.  I lost that connection where I could not hear his voice.  I lost my focus and placed too much on human beings only to be disappointed over and over again.  People offer to help and don't.  I am still in need now, going through the greatest financial struggles with my business.  My anxiety level has been off the chain.  BUT, there's this voice that keeps going over and over in my head -- trust me.  We are God's soldiers.  We are in a constant spiritual warfare to take back that all belongs to God.  We are more than conquerors.  Soldiers fight to take the hill in victory.  You are a solider in the army of the most high.  We will not be defeated.   Victory is ours.  My prayer is not for you to keep your faith.  My prayer for you is to establish an intimate relationship in Christ.  He can numb the pain if we let go and let him be him in us.  My financial woes are not gone but I choose to live and not die.  I choose to trust God with all of my heart and lean not to my own understanding and in all ways acknowledge him and he will direct my path.  I am standing on the promised of Jesus.  He says for us to go ye therefore and teach all nations.  We teach truth and love . . . not according to man's rules but by the word of God.  I pray of a connection and/or reconnection in Christ for you.  Love God with all of your heart, mind, and soul!  I pray that something that I say will bless and encourage you.  I love you with my heart and wish the greatest blessings upon you.

 

[Ev]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[mara]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Saraha]

Heavenly Father hear our prayers. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen

 

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