Sundarj, I was almost where you are , thinking that God had forsaken me, thinking he just didn't hear my prayers about my exhusband, I was so depressed and lonely, I felt absolutely rejected, hopeless, no purpose, but i know God loves me and he loves you too, please do not turn away from God, he always has a plan for our life, we are his children, every good gift come from the Lord, wait on him, delight yourself in him and he shall give you the desires of your heart, wait and see, don't give up, he'll go through the fire with you, he's going through it with me, forgive and release jane from your heart, I pray that God will guide and protect you daily, I pray that he will turn your ashes into beauty, i know he will, for he is a faithful God.