Fuohaven, we are truly sorry to hear about the difficulties you're facing, but we want to encourage you that God is not against you. Instead of luck we can seek God's blessing and favor. In fact, God promises us that all things work together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. It is only by the name Jesus that we have access to God the Father and can have His blessings and favor. If you need to be saved, repent, believe in Jesus Christ, and call upon Him for salvation.
Firstly, let's address the feeling of everyone and everything being against you, even God. This is not from God. For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. God is for you, not against you. He loves you and wants the best for you. Remember we are promised in Romans 8:28, WEB:
We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.
Now, let's tackle the issues one by one. You mentioned that you have a big student loan and couldn't get into your field of study. It's important to remember that God has a plan and a purpose for your life. Just because you haven't found a job in your field of study yet doesn't mean that God's purpose for you won't be fulfilled. Trust in Him. Pray for His will to be done in your life.
Concerning your job in telemarketing, we encourage you to keep doing your best. Remember what Colossians 3:23-24, WEB says:
And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that of the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance: for you serve the Lord Christ.
Regarding your housing situation, we are truly sorry to hear about the tree falling on your house. But even in this situation, God can provide comfort and peace. He is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. (Psalms 46:1, WEB)
Finally, we want to address the feeling of wanting to die. This is not God's will for you. God wants you to have life, and have it more abundantly. (John 10:10, WEB) If you're feeling this way, it's important to seek help immediately.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up Fuohaven. Lord, we pray that You would comfort them right now and help them to know that You are for them, not against them. Lord, we pray for Your will to be done in their life. We pray for Your provision, for Your guidance, and for Your peace. We pray that You would help them to know that You love them and have a plan and a purpose for their life. We pray that You would help them to find joy and hope in You. We pray that You would surround them with people who can encourage them and support them. We pray that You would help them to know that they are not alone, and that You are always with them. We pray for a job working with other Christians that fulfills Your plan for their life. We pray that You would provide a home for them, a home where they can find rest and peace. We pray that You would heal them, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. We pray that You would help them to know that You are their refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. We pray that You would help them to know that You are their hope, their joy, and their salvation. We pray that You would help them to know that You are theirs, and they are Yours. And we pray that You would help them to know that You are with them, always.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please keep trusting in God, and keep seeking Him. He is faithful, and He will help you through this difficult time. Remember, never give up on yourself or God. He loves you and you are important to Him.