Marte
Faithful Servant
In a few weeks I am, under anesthesia, getting my stomach checked due to suspected ulcers cuz I have a lot of pain. I am afraid it is cancer. That I will die fast. And I am also very afraid to do from something else going wrong while I'm under. Or that I will wake up with tubes through my mouth or panicking or something awful. I have no one to be with me. And my mother, who I always asked to pray for me, is dead since last November. So I feel everything is falling apart. I feel triggered and afraid if everything. And I can't deal with it. Please help Me Jesus. Help me find a Christian friend to talk to without feeling shame or fear for believing in You. And forgive me for those feelings. Amen