I want you to know I can empathize with everything that you just said, and I truly mean that. So I’m coming to you not as a sympathizer, but full of empathy and much more important than that, the answer on how to start moving from hopelessness to happiness and a much more. You have to remember one thing, often times we are attacked by the enemy. When we are about to come into a new season and walk with Jesus, the unfortunate part is what the enemy does makes it feel, and I emphasize the word “feel”, as though we are alone, and God isn’t listening which you know nothing is further from the truth. I know its hard, even the thought of getting out of your bed and getting outside so you can feel the sun even if it is chilly out seems like a daunting task, again when you’re in this season, please try not to base everything on your feelings. Fight to move opposite the feeling, in other words, if you just want to lay in bed, it’s because it’s easier not to deal with some thing than it is to deal with it. Start speaking out loud everything God has done for you that you can remember, all the hardships that you have been through that God has helped you with, and remember that the work that was started in you will not be finished until completion. God is with you right now, please realize this fact, reach out for him scream for him, call him on his promise! I will come into agreement with you, that you will not be bound by depression, you will not be bound in hidden away by fear, that fear is a liar, you are a child of the living God in nothing can take that from you. I also speak out against any dark spirit that is trying to keep you down and miserable to leave in the name of Jesus Christ. I ask that God send you. As many angels as it takes to keep you, well, protected and moving forward. And I thank you Jesus for the bravery of this person to speak out and ask for help from fellow lovers of Christ! I’m not sure if you realize, but you already took the first step on getting out of this mindset. Start digging into the word again put on the helmet as well as the rest of the armor of God. And start remembering the promises, he made to keep you, to give you a life of abundance, love, clarity, and most importantly, remember that this is not our true home. When God decides it’s time, that is where our real life begins. I pray that this has helped your heart, and know that I love you more importantly, know that God loves you so intensely that he is willing to do whatever it takes to help you from this situation you were in. It’s gonna be OK, because God promised.