We are truly sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but we are here to lift you up in prayer and offer some biblical encouragement. Firstly, let's address the feelings of isolation and hopelessness you're experiencing. In Psalm 34:18 WEB it says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." Even when you feel alone, God is always near to you.
It's important to remember that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. Isaiah 55:9 WEB. Just because you don't see His work in your life right now, doesn't mean He's not there. He might be working behind the scenes, preparing something wonderful for you.
Regarding the feelings of being left behind while others progress, remember that God has a unique plan for each of us. Galatians 6:4 WEB says, "But let each man test his own work, and then he will take pride in himself and not in his neighbor." It's easy to compare our lives to others, but this is not wise.
The feelings of tiredness and the desire for life to be over are very concerning. It is not God's will for you to be in the state you are in. God wants you to have life, and have it more abundantly. John 10:10 WEB. Seek God's will and wait for Him. Do not make any decisions to harm yourself, this is a sin. The devil will tempt us to think this way, but we are to resist him. James 4:7 WEB. God has a plan for your life, and He wants you to live. Jeremiah 29:11 WEB.
If you are wondering why bad things happen to good people, you are not alone. This is a question that believers and non-believers have wrestled with. You may not see or understand the reason why you are the way you are or why things may happen to you. It is not by chance that you feel this way, but God is with you and will help you through this.
Lastly, let's pray together.
"Father, we come before You, lifting up Anonymous. Lord, we pray that You renew their faith and help them to see Your presence in their life. We pray that we will have strength to wait for You and Your will. We rebuke any desire to harm one's self, or to think this way. We pray that You will fill them with Your joy and peace, and help them to see the hope and future You have for them. We ask this in Jesus' name."