Anonymous
Beloved of All
I wish my mom would see me for me and not as her past traumas. She sees me as a whore because I was raped and she blamed me for it but she was also raped in her younger years and hasn't been to therapy for it or for the other types of abuse she endured, and because of this she mistreats me, or paints me as a whore, a liar, a manipulator and a lot of things when in reality I just want my mom to love me like a mom should. She also defends abusive men and villanizes their female victims. She has a lot of issues and I think she projects them to other women by treating them maybe how she feels about herself... I'm not sure but that is what my therapist said it could be. My mom is afraid of therapy and says that me advising her to go to therapy is me trying to convince her that she is crazy and that I am evil. I just want her to be ok with herself because if she is and she heals, she will be ok with me and won't be supporting abusive men or welcoming them into my life (like some family members), letting them abuse me in different ways and blaming me for it..they love it when she blames me for what they do or when she blames other girls for what those men do to them. She paints those guys as good people and the victims as villains. When I try to talk to her about it she hurts me more, and she always chooses the men, especially if they give her money, travels, a ride to somewhere, etc. I have been needing to let this out for some time now. Please pray for my mother's healing (for my healing too since I have been through a lot even thou I am thinking more about my mom and her wellbeing), for her to have wisdom and discernment when dealing with bad men and to look for godly men, godly people to befriend, and for her to come back to Christ.