iwiizkiid
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everyone, I am new here and before I start I would like to say my past has really affected the present and it seems like everything is falling back on me now and I don't know where to turn, now I'm here. I Christian and do believe however only really attend Church every Christmas eve.
I married when I was about 22, now 25 to my Wife who is 11 years older than me. We had a child and I also brought her two children up from being young. We have been together nearly 7 years and just had our 4th year anniversary. I won't go into detail about everything but we have had serious problems over this past year.
She left me in January of this year as she couldn't forgive me cheating on her before we got married, ever since then it's been hard to maintain any sort of relationship. In March we met and talked and we agreed on a fresh start but soon after things got rocky and she wasn't over what I had done still. Ever since March it has been on and off and she cannot forgive me for cheating on her and messaging other girls on social media platforms. When I committed these dreadful acts I was young (no excuse) I was hanging around with the wrong people, which meant I had the attitude of those that were also doing the wrong things.
Since the split I have really made an effort to put things right and show my Wife how much this marriage means and my family but its like I am being punished for my actions. I don't want to loose her but she thinks theres more than what I have told her about and keeps asking me to swear on my childs life which I don't do and refuse, but unless I do this she won't get back with me and we cannot move forward as she won't attend marriage counselling unless I do this. I really don't want to loose her but I have tried every possible outcome and the only thing I have left is to pray and hope all this can blow over and I can maintain my marriage and my family. I don't want a divorce, I don't want any other man around my kids, I'm still young, Im scared...I'm just lost and need some sense of direction.
Is there a pray I can say please, I kinda hate my past and what I've done but I'm a good man now and feel like I previously just lost my way but now I'm being punished for it.
I married when I was about 22, now 25 to my Wife who is 11 years older than me. We had a child and I also brought her two children up from being young. We have been together nearly 7 years and just had our 4th year anniversary. I won't go into detail about everything but we have had serious problems over this past year.
She left me in January of this year as she couldn't forgive me cheating on her before we got married, ever since then it's been hard to maintain any sort of relationship. In March we met and talked and we agreed on a fresh start but soon after things got rocky and she wasn't over what I had done still. Ever since March it has been on and off and she cannot forgive me for cheating on her and messaging other girls on social media platforms. When I committed these dreadful acts I was young (no excuse) I was hanging around with the wrong people, which meant I had the attitude of those that were also doing the wrong things.
Since the split I have really made an effort to put things right and show my Wife how much this marriage means and my family but its like I am being punished for my actions. I don't want to loose her but she thinks theres more than what I have told her about and keeps asking me to swear on my childs life which I don't do and refuse, but unless I do this she won't get back with me and we cannot move forward as she won't attend marriage counselling unless I do this. I really don't want to loose her but I have tried every possible outcome and the only thing I have left is to pray and hope all this can blow over and I can maintain my marriage and my family. I don't want a divorce, I don't want any other man around my kids, I'm still young, Im scared...I'm just lost and need some sense of direction.
Is there a pray I can say please, I kinda hate my past and what I've done but I'm a good man now and feel like I previously just lost my way but now I'm being punished for it.
