No, when push comes to shove, I would be martyred.That saves your soul, but these stupid little things like distractions,annoying people, over the top busyness,obstacles popping up to jumble my plans,I don't compare that to being martyred for your faith. But my point,remember, for example,Paul went out to persecute Christians, he didn't go out "believeing" he'd get saved,but Gods will overrode his, so I'm saying, it's not always our "words" that determine things, it's how God decides something plays out. And like I say, I'm not the only one , there are disagreements between Christians on different issues, yet for some reason you seem to come down heavier on me than others who think similarly.Ok, example, "ANYTHING we want? what if we calim our thing, and it's something that God sees in the long run will be bad for us, and He had other plans for us?.It's happened before.