I have suffered from depression all my life now I'm 41 and in bad marriage, the is never enough for my family, my kids a lacking everything they need , depression is so strong right I can't even fight it anymore, I just want to die now, It looks like, I will never be free from it and my husband will never love me and only me What did I do to have hard life like this, I hope that when I'm old it will be better but it's worse, I have no more energy. God it seems as if you don't see me that I'm suffering.