I have made a mess of my ...

[Akaenari]

I have made a mess of my life.
I have gained over 100 lbs over the past 15-20 years (with a lot of yo-yo'ing).
I hate myself.
I have not worked in over 11 years,
I have no friends. Not in the generalized sense of "no friends" but in the I have alienated every person that I was friends with and have never made any new ones since.
I self-sabotage through procrastination and sloth.
I am concerned that I suffer from some level of low I.Q/mental slowness as I have never performed well academically without having to give enormous efforts. I have always been poor at math despite a longing to be naturally adept at mathematics.
Due to my loneliness, I (despite being a reserved, private person) volunteer far too much information I suppose in an attempt to connect.
If I knew that hell was not a punishment for murder, I would like to believe that I would be courageous enough to kill myself.
I will be 38 soon. These past 37 years have been for naught. A complete and utter waste.
I believe in God. I trust the Lord, but I have failed SO much. I wrote a test for a job opportunity a little over two weeks ago, this had the potential to really change my life. I had 5 weeks to study for said test and only looked over the course materials briefly, not even amounting to an hour of study. Suffice it to say, I failed. I threw away a much needed opportunity. I literally do not know what to do.
I don't know what to do.
I know what to do in the sense of quit overeating/being given to gluttony.
Apply to and start working somewhere, anywhere -- but the truth is, I don't want to. My apptitudes and experience don't coincide and I do not feel like working the jobs that meet my level of work experience. I do not want to be arrogant, but I have to be honest. The truth is, my life is a mess of my own making.
Please pray for God's Will to be done.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to pray for.
I want to lose this weight - and keep it off
I want to obtain gainful employment that I can parlay into a career that utilizes my skills and passions and where I can serve the Lord through my talents and passions (communications).
I would like to make sincere, faithful God-fearing friends.
I am just so sick of failing and losing.
I am not looking for a free pass per se - I am just looking for an indication/confirmation that it is worth it to do something because all of my decisions, thus far, have been very VERY poor ones.
Please pray for me as you feel led.
I am not articulating my problem(s) very well.
I know that my issues pale in comparison to those of others. But I live a very lonely, sad, failed existence and I don't know why I won't stop choosing to fail/procrastinate/be given to sloth etc.

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[CatherineR]

I prayed for God to help you lose the weight, find friends, and find employment. May God's will be done in your life.

 

[Alera]

Beautiful child. It is so easy to believe a lie when we are afraid its the truth. You are not a failure. You are not a loser. right here, right now today, you are His creation. Now. Not on the condition that you change. Now. Breath. Its going to be ok. I understand the shadow of darkness that is all consuming, and the deep seated guilt that comes from believing you are not enough. David experienced similar feelings, to such an extend that he and God worked it out that every night David would present his heart to God and ask God to bring to Davids attention what God wanted David to work on. And that's all that David WOULD work on.
Don't look at the things the world would have you do. Even the Godly world. Look to Him. To the exclusion of all things else. He says all we have to do is love and He will take care of everything else. Nothing else matters, everything else is dust in the wind. I do not say these things lightly my friend. He has spent decades trying to teach me the same lessons. My life is complicated and interesting to say the least. How I function, how I make it, is by asking for His will in everything. He will always answer yes to prayers for His will. Might not be YOURS, but it will be His. I ask for wisdom generously, so I can stop making poor choices. I treat others the way I want to be treated regardless of how they treat me because that is love. It is a second by second choice. I don't pray anymore. I talk to Him all day. When Im angry, I pray for those who have wronged me. But I continue a conversation because it is Him who brings freedom , it is Him who brings peace. It is a fight, a daily struggle to chose God at each turn. But it is YOUR choice, in who you want to be. You can do this. You are ready. Otherwise you wouldn't have posted here. Praise God that He is moving in your life. Claim the blessings that He has promised you. I suggest reading Psalms and seeing that you are not alone. Connect at church, get in His word daily, journal. Fight to grow closer to Him as He fights for you. You are loved, cherished and adored. Let Him show you. May His will be done in your life and may He bless you so that much that the world knows you are His beloved.

 

[Akaenari]

I prayed for God to help you lose the weight, find friends, and find employment. May God's will be done in your life.

I genuinely appreciate you taking the time to intercede in prayer on my behalf Andarnir,
Thank you.

 

[Roy S.]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Akaenari]

Beautiful child. It is so easy to believe a lie when we are afraid its the truth. You are not a failure. You are not a loser. right here, right now today, you are His creation. Now. Not on the condition that you change. Now. Breath. Its going to be ok. I understand the shadow of darkness that is all consuming, and the deep seated guilt that comes from believing you are not enough. David experienced similar feelings, to such an extend that he and God worked it out that every night David would present his heart to God and ask God to bring to Davids attention what God wanted David to work on. And that's all that David WOULD work on.
Don't look at the things the world would have you do. Even the Godly world. Look to Him. To the exclusion of all things else. He says all we have to do is love and He will take care of everything else. Nothing else matters, everything else is dust in the wind. I do not say these things lightly my friend. He has spent decades trying to teach me the same lessons. My life is complicated and interesting to say the least. How I function, how I make it, is by asking for His will in everything. He will always answer yes to prayers for His will. Might not be YOURS, but it will be His. I ask for wisdom generously, so I can stop making poor choices. I treat others the way I want to be treated regardless of how they treat me because that is love. It is a second by second choice. I don't pray anymore. I talk to Him all day. When Im angry, I pray for those who have wronged me. But I continue a conversation because it is Him who brings freedom , it is Him who brings peace. It is a fight, a daily struggle to chose God at each turn. But it is YOUR choice, in who you want to be. You can do this. You are ready. Otherwise you wouldn't have posted here. Praise God that He is moving in your life. Claim the blessings that He has promised you. I suggest reading Psalms and seeing that you are not alone. Connect at church, get in His word daily, journal. Fight to grow closer to Him as He fights for you. You are loved, cherished and adored. Let Him show you. May His will be done in your life and may He bless you so that much that the world knows you are His beloved.

I thank God for your words of encouragement, Alera.
Thank you for the suggestion(s), I will definetly re-read the Psalms with intention and detail.

 

[Roy S.]

I have made a mess of my life.
I have gained over 100 lbs over the past 15-20 years (with a lot of yo-yo'ing).
I hate myself.
I have not worked in over 11 years,
I have no friends. Not in the generalized sense of "no friends" but in the I have alienated every person that I was friends with and have never made any new ones since.
I self-sabotage through procrastination and sloth.
I am concerned that I suffer from some level of low I.Q/mental slowness as I have never performed well academically without having to give enormous efforts. I have always been poor at math despite a longing to be naturally adept at mathematics.
Due to my loneliness, I (despite being a reserved, private person) volunteer far too much information I suppose in an attempt to connect.
If I knew that hell was not a punishment for murder, I would like to believe that I would be courageous enough to kill myself.
I will be 38 soon. These past 37 years have been for naught. A complete and utter waste.
I believe in God. I trust the Lord, but I have failed SO much. I wrote a test for a job opportunity a little over two weeks ago, this had the potential to really change my life. I had 5 weeks to study for said test and only looked over the course materials briefly, not even amounting to an hour of study. Suffice it to say, I failed. I threw away a much needed opportunity. I literally do not know what to do.
I don't know what to do.
I know what to do in the sense of quit overeating/being given to gluttony.
Apply to and start working somewhere, anywhere -- but the truth is, I don't want to. My apptitudes and experience don't coincide and I do not feel like working the jobs that meet my level of work experience. I do not want to be arrogant, but I have to be honest. The truth is, my life is a mess of my own making.
Please pray for God's Will to be done.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to pray for.
I want to lose this weight - and keep it off
I want to obtain gainful employment that I can parlay into a career that utilizes my skills and passions and where I can serve the Lord through my talents and passions (communications).
I would like to make sincere, faithful God-fearing friends.
I am just so sick of failing and losing.
I am not looking for a free pass per se - I am just looking for an indication/confirmation that it is worth it to do something because all of my decisions, thus far, have been very VERY poor ones.
Please pray for me as you feel led.
I am not articulating my problem(s) very well.
I know that my issues pale in comparison to those of others. But I live a very lonely, sad, failed existence and I don't know why I won't stop choosing to fail/procrastinate/be given to sloth etc.

1Cor.2:16 For WHO HAS KNOWN THE MIND OF THE LORD, THAT HE WILL INSTRUCT HIM? But we have the mind of Christ.

Rom.12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.

Phil.4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Eph.5:15-16 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.

Rom.5:1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,

Col.3:2 Jesus replied: ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’


Rom.10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.


In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths Prov. 3:6

 

[Akaenari]

1Cor.2:16 For WHO HAS KNOWN THE MIND OF THE LORD, THAT HE WILL INSTRUCT HIM? But we have the mind of Christ.
Rom.12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
Phil.4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Eph.5:15-16 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
Rom.5:1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,
Col.3:2 Jesus replied: ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’
Rom.10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.


In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths Prov. 3:6

Thank you, Roy S. for your above prayer as well as all of these scripture references. I appreciate it.

 

[Brother James]

Praying with and for you in Jesus.

We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

You can copy and paste this to pray every day and share...

There is nothing that happens for us that is bad. All things work for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!

Sing through out your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will over flow His Holy Peace in us.

Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.

I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.

Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.

Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.

Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.

Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.

Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.

Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.