Let me say first off that God did not tell you to marry this man , if He did then you would NOT be having problems in your marriage . Sometimes we get ourselves in trouble then we wonder where God is . God has never once left your side if you have given you life over to Him , as His child you are a Christian and He promises to NEVER leave or forsake us . The word of God { the bible } tells us that without faith , it is impossible to please God , please do not doubt what God can do in your life . The Lord loves you with an everlasting love that nothing can destroy . All you need to do is to keep talking { praying } to God because He DOES hear you . Ask Him for His wisdom and direction and then have it confirmed in your heart by the Holy Spirit of God , He will NEVER fail you .