I have figured that asking God how long we ...

[anonymous7367]

I have figured that asking God how long we must endure suffering and pain makes God drag it out longer. I must have asked too many times because not a day goes by that I don't endure either or both and I am 50 years old. I truly believe God enjoys watching his children suffer or he would put and end to it since HE is in control.

Last Christmas I prayed for a miracle/blessing and it was NOT granted. I have prayed again and thus far God continues to say no. How can one believe that such exists if one never see one or experience one?

This year I am asking for a financial miracle to get caught up on all our bills before oir services are disconnected, before my car an mother-in-law electric furniture is repossessed, before they garnishy husbands check, before the foreclose our property. I have a day left. With God all things are possible? Are these words just word? God will provide!? I managed to keep my lights on for another week. Though it won't matter if I'm homeless on Friday (today is Tuesday).

This is the season of miracles, of Jesus birth. He came to save us. He suffered for us. God ended his suffering. I have had and still have no Christmas spirit. As the Christmas music played in church Sunday I could not sing the words. It felt meaningless to me. I was crying outwardly and inwardly. I tried to smile and put on a happy face but all I could think about was how I was going to get my bills paid. I had to light the advent candles while another lady read and at the end it said Hod brought Mary and Joseph through their ordeal God would bring us through ours this season. I found no comfort in that. I guess because all hope is gone just like it appears that the deer have gone before the end of the season.

I have prayed for others, asked forgiveness, cried, begged, pleaded, I don't know what else to do. All I can see is doom for me. I tell myself God will take care of it and show me what I need to do put he tells me he will NOT help me.

We did not out up a Christmas tree this year as my husband and I have no Christmas spirit. Our children know there are no gifts thos year because we are broke and broken in spirit not just over the money. We never spent much on gifts at Christmas but to not be able to put even one dollar in a card!?! Last Christmas was bad as my father-in-law was deathly ill. This year has been nothing but gloom and doom all year with nothing, no light at the end of the tunnel. The tunnel just keeps getting longer.

I have prayed and prayed and prayed and cried out to God. Why Lord, why won't you HELP me!!?!!

I repent daily. I pray for other people. I do what I can as my hands are tied. I try to be happy and hopeful but it isn't happening.

Lord, i ask that you forgive me my sins as you know every one. Please comfort the Adams family Lord, especially Mr. George as he has lost so much this year, his youngest daughter, his youngest grandchild and just a week ago his beloved wife of 58 years and his son in law could go any time while the other son in law is still battling Cancer. George loves you so much Lord. Mrs. Shirley died on Friday and George was in church on Sunday. Please comfort the whole family.

In Jesus name I pray. Amen

 

[euleen]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Carol825]

I can imagine what you are feeling, as I was recently struggling myself with no job, no money, complete and utter depression and absolutely no faith in God.  I was so angry and cried to him, cursed and yelled and cried some more.  I then tried to be happy and upbeat, thinking that if I just believe he would change things and make things better for us, he would grant me a job.  That didn't work either.  I finally told him since he turned his back on me, I'd turn my back on him.  That worked for about a day, as I would wind up crying again, for missing talking to him and leaning on him for any sense of comfort and peace at all, that I could barely find.  Then, I joined this site.  I posted a prayer request, an answer I received from someone who prayed for me told me something I needed to hear that I had not tried.  

This person asked me if I've given to God.  I must hand it over to him, pray about it, pray with faith, not worry, then give it to God and let him deal with it for me.  I tried it.  That worked for maybe a day.  I really tried to hand it over, but we humans are control freaks,  We feel it is our duty, our responsibility to hold on to all of our worries and keep worrying, as if worrying is going to change things.  It's not.  It only makes it worse.

This is just a suggestion, since it did finally help me.

1) Pray to God constantly, like a conversation with your best friend, an ongoing conversation, tell God, "I know you've got this.  I need not worry.  You will take care of everything in your time.  I believe in you and I know I need patience to wait on you.  I know you will work all of this out for the better.  Thank you, God, for your blessings.  I will wait on you."

2) Do your part as far as looking for work, trying to earn money.  You can only do what you can do, but you must take some sort of action.  Put in applications, send our your resume', etc.

3) Let go and let God.  This is the toughest part, or at least it was for me.  You have to try as hard as you can to let go of your worry, your lack of faith, believe that good things will happen, and wait on God, as it's in his time, not ours.  I know we want and need it NOW, but we must find patience and wait on God.

Once I did these things, eventually I did find a job, even more than one job offer and good money with these jobs.  I'm still being offered jobs that I now have to turn down!  

I will be in daily prayer for you, friend, that God will deliver goodness, mercy and deliver you and your family from endless struggle.  Trust in him.  I know how hard and nearly impossible that can be, especially when you are in the thick of everything going wrong and you are scared to death and most or all faith has left you.  Believe me, he does want good for you and your family.  Trust him above all else.  Put it all in God's hands and let him take care of it for you.  His timing.  Just remember that.  Don't give up.  A handful of his blessings are just around the next corner!

 

[lotsofhope]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[anonymous7367]

I can imagine what you are feeling, as I was recently struggling myself with no job, no money, complete and utter depression and absolutely no faith in God. I was so angry and cried to him, cursed and yelled and cried some more. I then tried to be happy and upbeat, thinking that if I just believe he would change things and make things better for us, he would grant me a job. That didn't work either. I finally told him since he turned his back on me, I'd turn my back on him. That worked for about a day, as I would wind up crying again, for missing talking to him and leaning on him for any sense of comfort and peace at all, that I could barely find. Then, I joined this site. I posted a prayer request, an answer I received from someone who prayed for me told me something I needed to hear that I had not tried.

This person asked me if I've given to God. I must hand it over to him, pray about it, pray with faith, not worry, then give it to God and let him deal with it for me. I tried it. That worked for maybe a day. I really tried to hand it over, but we humans are control freaks, We feel it is our duty, our responsibility to hold on to all of our worries and keep worrying, as if worrying is going to change things. It's not. It only makes it worse.

This is just a suggestion, since it did finally help me.

1) Pray to God constantly, like a conversation with your best friend, an ongoing conversation, tell God, "I know you've got this. I need not worry. You will take care of everything in your time. I believe in you and I know I need patience to wait on you. I know you will work all of this out for the better. Thank you, God, for your blessings. I will wait on you."

2) Do your part as far as looking for work, trying to earn money. You can only do what you can do, but you must take some sort of action. Put in applications, send our your resume', etc.

3) Let go and let God. This is the toughest part, or at least it was for me. You have to try as hard as you can to let go of your worry, your lack of faith, believe that good things will happen, and wait on God, as it's in his time, not ours. I know we want and need it NOW, but we must find patience and wait on God.

Once I did these things, eventually I did find a job, even more than one job offer and good money with these jobs. I'm still being offered jobs that I now have to turn down!

I will be in daily prayer for you, friend, that God will deliver goodness, mercy and deliver you and your family from endless struggle. Trust in him. I know how hard and nearly that can be, especially when you are in the thick of everything going wrong and you are scared to death and most or all faith has left you. Believe me, he does want good for you and your family. Trust him above all else. Put it all in God's hands and let him take care of it for you. His timing. Just remember that. Don't give up. A handful of his blessings are just around the next corner!

Carol825:

I have been on disability for 10 yrs. I had a part time job that did not interfere with my disability income and I had to give it up to care for my mother who has Alzheimer's. We had to give up our vehicle which ruined our credit as we were just getting back on our feet from my stepson stealing everything from us causing us to lose our home and he attempted suicide so my husband was out of work to care for him. 2 yrs later same thing only this time 2007 he died. Lot of other stuff. Anyway a yr after I quit work my sister went behind my back, showed up with guardianship papers and immediately put mom in a home. She had refused to help care for mom as she sat on my couch and told us "I can't and WON'T give up any of my jobs to watch mom, I HAVE BILLS TO PAY" I was all I could do to keep my husband from killing her. No one but her had bills to pay?

Anyway this was in 2009-2010. In the middle of the economy tanking. I have been trying ever since to find employment. I even call my former employer to see if the office person is leaving. I have lost count the number of resumes I've sent, hit all the temp agencies, took a class to improve my computer skills, tried taking surveys on line, tried a few mlm's. I've always done without. I wear my clothes til they fall apart, shoes too. Recently threw away three pairs of shoes and a pair of jeans.

I carry on conversations with God all day every day. My husbands kids and parents have put us in a financial bind, add his employer who cut his pay twice this year and the way they work ( he's off for 3 wks but don't qualify for unemployment) and a vehicle that broke down out of town that took an entire paycheck to get us home, a water pump for the house, his 14 yr old stealing my car in the middle of the night& totaled it & it was pid for-- all before August this year , his daddy being hospitalized for over a month and then bedridden at home and died. His oldest daughter just got out of prison and he has mandatory family session with the 14 yr old which burns a 1/2 tank a gas every week.

I am disgusted. I tried giving it to God. I've never figured out how to let it all go.

 

[Carol825]

Aw man, y'all have too much chaos going on.  I can't imagine what it's like to have so much on your plates to deal with.  God is testing your patience for sure.  I have to believe that all of these things are happening for good reasons, even if it certainly doesn't feel that way, and I'm sure you can find nothing good in any of that stuff.  Sometimes, you have to look really hard to find the good in something, if only for it to be that you and your husband still have each other, still have love, and as long as you are alive, there is always time for healing and for answered prayers.

I know it's not much or doesn't feel like much to go on, and I know how nearly impossible it is to "let go and let God."  I'm 45 and I just learned how to do it, although not getting it completely right.  Just try, no matter how unbelievably hard it is.  I promise you that he has good things in store for you.  Sometimes we have to go through hell on earth to reach any kind of goodness in our lives.

I was abused as a child by my father and neglected by my mother, molested by a man my mother worked for, molested by a brother of a friend (I had a sleeper at her house/ her bday party), and never ever protected by my mother.  Both of my brothers have tried to molest me.  I had years of hating God, years of questioning his existence even, then miracles happened.  What I'm trying to say, is no matter how hard it gets and there still may be rough roads ahead, please don't give up on God.  He has good plans for you.  I know you have so much stress and depression, despair and lack of faith in your life but if you just keep trying to give it all up to him and wait on him, just be strong and try to have that much needed faith, even when, or especially when things are at their roughest.

I will be thinking about you and your families and praying for y'all daily.  (hug)

 

[anonymous7367]

Aw man, y'all have too much chaos going on. I can't imagine what it's like to have so much on your plates to deal with. God is testing your patience for sure. I have to believe that all of these things are happening for good reasons, even if it certainly doesn't feel that way, and I'm sure you can find nothing good in any of that stuff. Sometimes, you have to look really hard to find the good in something, if only for it to be that you and your husband still have each other, still have love, and as long as you are alive, there is always time for healing and for answered prayers.

I know it's not much or doesn't feel like much to go on, and I know how nearly impossible it is to "let go and let God." I'm 45 and I just learned how to do it, although not getting it completely right. Just try, no matter how unbelievably hard it is. I promise you that he has good things in store for you. Sometimes we have to go through hell on earth to reach any kind of goodness in our lives.

I was abused as a child by my father and neglected by my mother, molested by a man my mother worked for, molested by a brother of a friend (I had a sleeper at her house/ her bday party), and never ever protected by my mother. Both of my brothers have tried to molest me. I had years of hating God, years of questioning his existence even, then miracles happened. What I'm trying to say, is no matter how hard it gets and there still may be rough roads ahead, please don't give up on God. He has good plans for you. I know you have so much stress and depression, despair and lack of faith in your life but if you just keep trying to give it all up to him and wait on him, just be strong and try to have that much needed faith, even when, or especially when things are at their roughest.

I will be thinking about you and your families and praying for y'all daily. (hug)

Carol825:
I didn't even share the good stuff. I have been through far worse. My biggest thing is paying bills. My step children are the biggest reason for our financial delima. Coupled with a husband who thinks he xan have money and spend it too. I do without. OrI should say me and my kids. Then expects me to pay the bills on what is left when there wasn't enough to begin with and if any service is disconnected or repossession I am blamed, cursed, things broken doors slammed. My last husband was the same way and I was the one working supporting a family of 6 on $ 7.00/hr and didn't qualify for any assistance. And alll hell broke lose he went to his moms she took the kids out of day care without telling me. They concockted a plan she eventually turned on him too and she and he got joint custody of our son with her having primary custody, he and I have joint custody of our daughter with him having primary custody. I haven't seenmy son in over 8 yrs. I see my daughter about once a year. She lives in AZ. He wants to be a woman main reason for the divorce. He and his mother wouldn't know the truth about anything if it hit them in the face. Anyway when we split I was left withmy other2 boys homeless. I can't go through this again.

My time is up to pay these bills and there is no money in sight. Every bill is 2 or more months behind and no one willing to work with me. We have something for sale but noone has even called about it. Even so if it sales he has plans for it which don't include paying bills. See what I am up against.

There's so much more. Several people told me I should write a book. I said it is too depressing and mo one would read it.

 

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