Thanks again LOVEWINS I can't describe how much I appreciate the prayer and encouragement.  I do however need some more advice.  You see, I am keen on what you have said so far, but there is one thing I have never seemed to get right, and that's my prayer life itself.  I have read many books and articles on the subject of praying and I try to take their advice, but it never feels quite right, even when I'm all in and I pray as if though I was talking to you or anybody else, it feels awkward, and I feel as if though my prayer is just not enough.  I often ask myself if I'm doing it wrong, or if I'm just not talking to him with the right attitude.  Some articles have suggested just telling him how I feel, and I do.  That's why I came to this site.  I needed help not just with finding a girl and my addiction problem but I just feel like I never pray right.  How do I pray with confidence and mean it.  The Bible says to pray as if it has already been given yet I can't, because every time I surrender this to him, even when I do it two or three times a day, every day I always come back and pick it up again.  How do I pray sincerely and get results in return?  How do I trust wholeheartedly without doubt in my mind?  I question weather or not I'm a Christian at all?