Sounds more like you have abandoned God/Jesus my friend, it is impossible for God to abandon us. What Bible verses have you read, what Scriptures have you quoted, what Promises have you ever claimed in the Name above names Jesus that you were denied anything? If we make our beds in Hell behold He is there. Have you ever read the Bible with the mindset that everything you are reading is utter Truth, is an Incredible Treasure that can be depended upon, can be Claimed in Jesus as Yourβs? Have you ever held out your hand and declared that the Kingdom of God/Jesus is at your very hand? Have you ever starved and thanked God/Jesus for feeding you? Have you ever been naked and then thanked God/Jesus for feeding you or been thankful that you are alive?
I can go on forever about Jesus my friend, just know that any abandonment has been on Us, not God/Jesus. Did Jesus die for your sins or not? Itβs on Us to receive what Jesus has for Us! Itβs on Us to Claim His Promises and to do that in His Name above names Jesus for Us to walk in His Power!
I say Glory to You Lord Jesus!!!