I don't know who I am anymore. ...

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[Shathesca]

I don't know who I am anymore. I know who I am in Christ, But as a person, I don't. I'm so tired of being pushed out of friend groups when I've become to inconvenient because I show an emotion instead of holding everyone else up. I feel I must kneel so they can stand. This has been a recurring problem since I was a child and now I'm an adult, an not even a young one either. We become friends because of our interests, but when they kick me out, all my interests just become a reminder of the hurt and I don't want to do them anymore. I don't know who I am, what I like, or what's worth it anymore. I'm so tired of crying and so tired of being lost and so tired of not being important to those I held close.

You are a reflection of those friends. You're being shown that it's probably time to move up in your consciousness spirituality. Not everyone is going to come with you including close friends and family. God is showing you a way. The ego or your enemy will throw everything it has at you to get you to doubt, be afraid, depressed, angry, hurt or tired just to keep you from ascending spirituality and intellectually. Try each moment to stay with Jesus. Don't call up the problem with your words and thoughts. Speak victory not victim story. This will be difficult for you because you haven't been feeling supported by your peers but in time you'll have Jesus as your best friend. Remember that people who aren't in faith won't want you to move up in consciousness. Guard your speech carefully because you have been conditioned to think thoughts of hurt or fear. Jesus already said who you are 2000 years ago. Move forward not backwards. This is just a supportive reminder. I'm really talking to myself. I remember when I felt like you described above. Reclaim your thoughts and identity as the person you choose others to know and see you as. Repeat and affirm each morning and night 3 or more "I Am " statements. I Am is from the word of God. I Am worthy of love. I Am healthy. Etc. Declaring I Am sets in motion who you are. I believe that you're here for a purpose. Trust in your heart. You might be about to have the best day or week you've ever had. up and up you go. New friends and new experiences.