I could have been so much. I ...

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I could have been so much. I could have done so much. Not for me but for the man upstairs. I have rejected so often, practically always, and not that I gave up but through those rejections I have been stuck I could have been stellar and could have given back to make the world a better place-not for me but for others. And b/c i have been said "no" to my life has not really amounted to anything. My father cursed me too many times, so did my sister and other family members. I need to reclaim my life now. BREAK THE SPIRIT OF REJECTION, ABUSE, BEING BULLIED, ANXIETY, FEAR, PTSD and things going wrong for me! I need to move forward in success and finally have things work out for me. I CANNOT BE STUCK IN THE LIFE THAT I AM IN NOW! THAT NEEDS TO STOP! My father cursed me on so many levels, this needs to stop. My sister curse me to not ever have a relationship, this needs to stop. My other sister cursed me so that I do not surpass her children. Everybody thinks that I am worthless and treat me as so and say these words over my life! This needs to STOP. I need to recognized for my positive traits and acknowledged positively and need to be let in when I apply for something that I want. I am deserving of some respect. I am deserving of only respect! I am deserving of proving myself and of what I can do well. Being blocked NEEDS TO STOP. BREAK THE CURSE OF REJECTION, ABUSE, BULLYING, BEING BLOCKED, SPREADING LIES AND SLANDER, BEING AGAINST ME..it stops me from moving forward. This wasn't supposed to happen to me, my life as it is. MAKE IT STOP! My father always told me that I was worthless, stupid, good for nothing, overweight and undermotivated (NOT TRUE), and other horrible other never defended me. He told me so often I have had eating disorders all my life and cosmetic surgery. No, I have never been fat, ugly or had acne. Nor have I ever been stupid. After going to graduate school three times, believe me I AM NOT STUPID! My sister put a curse on me to never have a relationship-never have a man. She did that b/c if I had the attn. of a man I would be more attractive than her and she couldn't deal with that. I have always found men interested in me but none never to be committed. THIS NEEDS TO STOP! I want to cut off all contact with these people and want to move forward. I AM ALWAYS REJECTED THIS NEEDS TO STOP. I need to make my contribution to the world. I need to make money to take care of myself b/c believe me no man is going to take care of me, no man is going to marry me and even if he did, I can't do it. I have to be let in! I need to be let into the environment for my studies, I need to be let in for my job. and I am deserving of some respect. THIS WANT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TO ME! MAKE IT STOP! I NEED TO MOVE FORWARD IN MY LIFE! STOP BLOCKING ME AND LET ME IN!

Thank you, Good Shepherd,
for brooding over her life like a mother broods over her nest. We decree and declare good favor with God and man, power, love, soundness of mind, confidence, courage, and faith. We expect what your word promises: you perfect ALL that concerns her and work ALL things together for her GOOD. We demolish the curses against her, in the mighty name that breaks every chain, the all-powerful name: JESUS. She will be recognized for her purity in Christ, many positive traits, and walk through every door you open, Lord. She will not fret the doors you close because she trusts you. She will remain humble before you so you can exalt her before men. She will believe for the right man. A man after your own heart. A successful man. A man who loves her the way you love her. You will guide her to supportive friends, prayer partners, and destiny helpers. You will bless those who bless her and curse those who curse her. Amen

Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. 20 Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head. 21 Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.