Anonymous
Beloved of All
I could have been so much. I could have done so much. Not for me but for the man upstairs. I have rejected so often, practically always, and not that I gave up but through those rejections I have been stuck I could have been stellar and could have given back to make the world a better place-not for me but for others. And b/c i have been said "no" to my life has not really amounted to anything. My father cursed me too many times, so did my sister and other family members. I need to reclaim my life now. BREAK THE SPIRIT OF REJECTION, ABUSE, BEING BULLIED, ANXIETY, FEAR, PTSD and things going wrong for me! I need to move forward in success and finally have things work out for me. I CANNOT BE STUCK IN THE LIFE THAT I AM IN NOW! THAT NEEDS TO STOP! My father cursed me on so many levels, this needs to stop. My sister curse me to not ever have a relationship, this needs to stop. My other sister cursed me so that I do not surpass her children. Everybody thinks that I am worthless and treat me as so and say these words over my life! This needs to STOP. I need to recognized for my positive traits and acknowledged positively and need to be let in when I apply for something that I want. I am deserving of some respect. I am deserving of only respect! I am deserving of proving myself and of what I can do well. Being blocked NEEDS TO STOP. BREAK THE CURSE OF REJECTION, ABUSE, BULLYING, BEING BLOCKED, SPREADING LIES AND SLANDER, BEING AGAINST ME..it stops me from moving forward. This wasn't supposed to happen to me, my life as it is. MAKE IT STOP! My father always told me that I was worthless, stupid, good for nothing, overweight and undermotivated (NOT TRUE), and other horrible other never defended me. He told me so often I have had eating disorders all my life and cosmetic surgery. No, I have never been fat, ugly or had acne. Nor have I ever been stupid. After going to graduate school three times, believe me I AM NOT STUPID! My sister put a curse on me to never have a relationship-never have a man. She did that b/c if I had the attn. of a man I would be more attractive than her and she couldn't deal with that. I have always found men interested in me but none never to be committed. THIS NEEDS TO STOP! I want to cut off all contact with these people and want to move forward. I AM ALWAYS REJECTED THIS NEEDS TO STOP. I need to make my contribution to the world. I need to make money to take care of myself b/c believe me no man is going to take care of me, no man is going to marry me and even if he did, I can't do it. I have to be let in! I need to be let into the environment for my studies, I need to be let in for my job. and I am deserving of some respect. THIS WANT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TO ME! MAKE IT STOP! I NEED TO MOVE FORWARD IN MY LIFE! STOP BLOCKING ME AND LET ME IN!