i had 2 very bad experiences today
a very either drunk or high truck driver decided to bully me...
tail-gate me...follow me...threaten me...cut me off...try to
hit me in the back...side swipe me...and various other things...
just for no reason...other then he had a HUGE HUGE TRUCK
it was a monster truck
with no identification on it either...
...and it was as long as a train and as high as a skyscraper
and for some reason
the driver simply picked me out to do all this too...
and have some very dangerous fun with me...
then later on this evening
out of no where...
i got a very unsettling and x-rated e-mail answer
from an advertising offer i had published...on a real estate web-site...
that i have out of state
seeking a possible rental...
i can only take soo much
and everyday now...it is one more negative experience
after another one...over and over again...
that stresses me to the maximum...
and soo deeply troubles and emotionally and spiritually and physically disturbs me...
ABBA--DADDY--FATHER--GOD
PLEASE
I AM BEGGING YOU
STOP ALL OF THIS FOR ME...PLEASE GOD.
I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE
PLEASE
HELP ME
DO SOMETHING
PROTECT ME
DEFEND ME
AND SHIELD ME FROM SOO MANY ATTACKS OF THE ENEMY
PLEASE
DON'T YOU WANT ME TO GET BETTER ABBA--DADDY--FATHER--GOD ?
I AM SURE THAT YOU DO......YES ???
I ASK YOU TO STEP IN NOW
AND PUT A HEDGE OF PROTECTION AROUND ME FROM ALL OF THIS...
AND THEN...
BLIND THE EYE'S OF MY TORMENTOR'S
AND MANY ENEMIES...
SO THEY CAN'T FIND ME ANY MORE...
PLEASE
DON'T ALLOW THEM TO HAVE VICTORY OVER ME ELOHIM IN YESHUA'S NAME...
PLEASE
I AM EXHAUSTED BEYOND WHAT I CAN ENDURE ANY MORE
I AM CRYING OUT TO YOU YET AGAIN
AT 3:13 A.M...E.S.T...FROM NEW YORK / U.S.A.
HELP ME
DO SOMETHING
PUT A STOP TO ALL OF THIS
I AM NOT THE GIRL I ONCE USED TO BE
AND I WANT SOO BADLY TO GET BETTER
BUT I NEED A BREAK...AND TIME...
PLEASE GIVE THIS CHANCE TO ME.....P.L.E.A.S.E...G.OD....
I CRY OUT FOR THIS
IN JESUS'S NAME...YOUR SON...WHO DIED FOR ME...
Thank-you soo much Daddy--Jesus--and--Holy Ghost...
all i can do is ask all three of you...in faith...
and then hold on...as best as i can...
this is no way for me to live any more...
and i can't live like this much longer...
i just can't......i am going under Daddy....
even my doctor's don;'t know what to do for me any more...
that's not good...is it...
please
please
can You do something to help me ?
and
to relieve these many many years of soo much intense suffering...
all by myself....soo all alone in this life....
please......please...
i am sooooo all alone...
and i can't hold on much longer...
i just can't anymore...
h.e.l.p...m.e.....
...................now so be it done please of You Lord God..... Most High....
because.....i know this truth............
that with you
all things are truly possible.....
and nothing for You
is ever impossible...
Amen........Yes........Amen...
{ You know that i love You Daddy--God
....please...........
just love me back...please }
p.l.e.a.s.e.
{ can i ask You something Lord God...
was my life meant to be this hard...
is this a test like what Job went thru for me...? ? ?
because it sure feels and looks like it too }
no one has an answer for me
no one understans why either
least of all.....me.
help me understand what i do not
please Father God...
can You...please...
help me understand what i no longer do...
can You....
help me see Your Will in all of this chao's...
and intense suffering and hurt and pain...
{ Do You Still Love Me Abba--Daddy ? }
Don't make it soo hard that i give up.
please
don't allow me to lose my faith hope and trust in you...don't allow me to not
want to live anymore...p.l.e.a.s.e.
Daddy--Father...can you do something please...before i go completely under...?
a very either drunk or high truck driver decided to bully me...
tail-gate me...follow me...threaten me...cut me off...try to
hit me in the back...side swipe me...and various other things...
just for no reason...other then he had a HUGE HUGE TRUCK
it was a monster truck
with no identification on it either...
...and it was as long as a train and as high as a skyscraper
and for some reason
the driver simply picked me out to do all this too...
and have some very dangerous fun with me...
then later on this evening
out of no where...
i got a very unsettling and x-rated e-mail answer
from an advertising offer i had published...on a real estate web-site...
that i have out of state
seeking a possible rental...
i can only take soo much
and everyday now...it is one more negative experience
after another one...over and over again...
that stresses me to the maximum...
and soo deeply troubles and emotionally and spiritually and physically disturbs me...
ABBA--DADDY--FATHER--GOD
PLEASE
I AM BEGGING YOU
STOP ALL OF THIS FOR ME...PLEASE GOD.
I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE
PLEASE
HELP ME
DO SOMETHING
PROTECT ME
DEFEND ME
AND SHIELD ME FROM SOO MANY ATTACKS OF THE ENEMY
PLEASE
DON'T YOU WANT ME TO GET BETTER ABBA--DADDY--FATHER--GOD ?
I AM SURE THAT YOU DO......YES ???
I ASK YOU TO STEP IN NOW
AND PUT A HEDGE OF PROTECTION AROUND ME FROM ALL OF THIS...
AND THEN...
BLIND THE EYE'S OF MY TORMENTOR'S
AND MANY ENEMIES...
SO THEY CAN'T FIND ME ANY MORE...
PLEASE
DON'T ALLOW THEM TO HAVE VICTORY OVER ME ELOHIM IN YESHUA'S NAME...
PLEASE
I AM EXHAUSTED BEYOND WHAT I CAN ENDURE ANY MORE
I AM CRYING OUT TO YOU YET AGAIN
AT 3:13 A.M...E.S.T...FROM NEW YORK / U.S.A.
HELP ME
DO SOMETHING
PUT A STOP TO ALL OF THIS
I AM NOT THE GIRL I ONCE USED TO BE
AND I WANT SOO BADLY TO GET BETTER
BUT I NEED A BREAK...AND TIME...
PLEASE GIVE THIS CHANCE TO ME.....P.L.E.A.S.E...G.OD....
I CRY OUT FOR THIS
IN JESUS'S NAME...YOUR SON...WHO DIED FOR ME...
Thank-you soo much Daddy--Jesus--and--Holy Ghost...
all i can do is ask all three of you...in faith...
and then hold on...as best as i can...
this is no way for me to live any more...
and i can't live like this much longer...
i just can't......i am going under Daddy....
even my doctor's don;'t know what to do for me any more...
that's not good...is it...
please
please
can You do something to help me ?
and
to relieve these many many years of soo much intense suffering...
all by myself....soo all alone in this life....
please......please...
i am sooooo all alone...
and i can't hold on much longer...
i just can't anymore...
h.e.l.p...m.e.....
...................now so be it done please of You Lord God..... Most High....
because.....i know this truth............
that with you
all things are truly possible.....
and nothing for You
is ever impossible...
Amen........Yes........Amen...
{ You know that i love You Daddy--God
....please...........
just love me back...please }
p.l.e.a.s.e.
{ can i ask You something Lord God...
was my life meant to be this hard...
is this a test like what Job went thru for me...? ? ?
because it sure feels and looks like it too }
no one has an answer for me
no one understans why either
least of all.....me.
help me understand what i do not
please Father God...
can You...please...
help me understand what i no longer do...
can You....
help me see Your Will in all of this chao's...
and intense suffering and hurt and pain...
{ Do You Still Love Me Abba--Daddy ? }
Don't make it soo hard that i give up.
please
don't allow me to lose my faith hope and trust in you...don't allow me to not
want to live anymore...p.l.e.a.s.e.
Daddy--Father...can you do something please...before i go completely under...?
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