Praying with you, dear friend. Sometimes it is also good to reflect on what I have done or am doing to make myself visible. Do I engage myself in charity-based or voluntary community work? At work, do I give it my all? How do you relate with those around you, be it family or neighbours? One thing you should be assured of is that your are never alone so be of good cheer.I ask that you all pray for me because I am struggling greatly with everything. It’s a lonely road and I think that is what makes it worse when you feel like you don’t mean anything to people. It’s like why am I here it’s not like I’m living for myself. But I have felt very unwanted and alone. I tell God I trust him but none of my prayers have been answered when I asked God to give me the desire to live or something to live for but he’s been very quiet so maybe he’ll listen to you all. I ask that God come into my heart that I really feel him beside me telling me that he is on my side and that his plan entails a better life for me. I want to have that moment that people talk about when they say something miraculous happens or they can literally see God and feel him. I want to feel that I am not alone. I want God to take the pain away. I don’t want to feel like my life is a chore basically. I need help financially I need a good paying job but it seems like I’m always getting runaround and it’s very discouraging but I need that security. I want good days because I don’t remember the last time I said to myself “today was a good day”.
John 14:18-....26
I will not leave you as orphans [comfortless, desolate, bereaved, forlorn, helpless]; I will come [back] to you. Just a little while now, and the world will not see Me any more, but you will see Me; because I live, you will live also. At that time [when that day comes] you will know [for yourselves] that I am in My Father, and you [are] in Me, and I [am] in you. The person who has My commands and keeps them is the one who [really] loves Me; and whoever [really] loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I [too] will love him and will show (reveal, manifest) Myself to him. [I will let Myself be clearly seen by him and make Myself real to him.]Amen