I am praying to never wake up

[Anonymous]

I wish my life would end.

I wish to cut myself again. When I came to Jesus I tried to stop.

Harming myself is the only thing that feels ‘right’ to me though. I feel like I deserve it, and seeing myself cut up like I did in the past is a thought that won’t leave my head. I’d like to make more scars on my body and hurt myself.

I have heard that I am a precious daughter to God and should not hurt myself, but I have never been precious to anyone. My own mother would hurt me horrifically.

Her anger, humiliation, the ways she’d hit and assault me.

No one thought it was wrong. Sometimes other family would hit me as well. I would be choked, or picked up and dragged around like a doll. I’ve been whipped, beaten, and bruised .. it was nothing.

No one cared. No one cares to this day. Instead I was told that I was curse who ruined their life. I shouldn’t have been born. That I was worthless, and should kill myself. I would never be loved so I should stop looking for it.

After so many years — no matter what God’s word said ..it was hard not to believe them. How can I ever forget?

I tried to keep going for God. I was told He had plans for me so I did my best to live. Then something so ..horrible happened to me I cannot speak it. It made me want to end my life.

I am so lonely. I have no one …not family or friends. Other than God I am entirely alone. No one understands that it hurts to just be alive and breathing. I cry every night to God.

It’s like I have third degree burns all on the inside of me.

If I must be alive ..then I can thinking of nothing but to hurt myself. I can not see myself as precious. Everyone has always hurt me. It’s all I know, and has become a comfort to me. I have never felt a human touch that didn't hurt or scare me.

I try to read of God’s promises in His word …but I am tired. It is dark. The words feel empty, and I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone. I am trying SO hard to live, but I don’t think I can.

I just wish I could just close my eyes and not wake up. That’s all.

I’m sorry if these words were too honest …I do not mean to upset anyone and apologize if they were. It’s just the truth that’s been in my heart for a very long time.

I do not think any will see this.. but if you say a small prayer for me I thank you very much.

 

[Brother James]

I wish my life would end.

I wish to cut myself again. When I came to Jesus I tried to stop.

Harming myself is the only thing that feels ‘right’ to me though. I feel like I deserve it, and seeing myself cut up like I did in the past is a thought that won’t leave my head. I’d like to make more scars on my body and hurt myself.

I have heard that I am a precious daughter to God and should not hurt myself, but I have never been precious to anyone. My own mother would hurt me horrifically.

Her anger, humiliation, the ways she’d hit and assault me.

No one thought it was wrong. Sometimes other family would hit me as well. I would be choked, or picked up and dragged around like a doll. I’ve been whipped, beaten, and bruised .. it was nothing.

No one cared. No one cares to this day. Instead I was told that I was curse who ruined their life. I shouldn’t have been born. That I was worthless, and should kill myself. I would never be loved so I should stop looking for it.

After so many years — no matter what God’s word said ..it was hard not to believe them. How can I ever forget?

I tried to keep going for God. I was told He had plans for me so I did my best to live. Then something so ..horrible happened to me I cannot speak it. It made me want to end my life.

I am so lonely. I have no one …not family or friends. Other than God I am entirely alone. No one understands that it hurts to just be alive and breathing. I cry every night to God.

It’s like I have third degree burns all on the inside of me.

If I must be alive ..then I can thinking of nothing but to hurt myself. I can not see myself as precious. Everyone has always hurt me. It’s all I know, and has become a comfort to me. I have never felt a human touch that didn't hurt or scare me.

I try to read of God’s promises in His word …but I am tired. It is dark. The words feel empty, and I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone. I am trying SO hard to live, but I don’t think I can.

I just wish I could just close my eyes and not wake up. That’s all.

I’m sorry if these words were too honest …I do not mean to upset anyone and apologize if they were. It’s just the truth that’s been in my heart for a very long time.

I do not think any will see this.. but if you say a small prayer for me I thank you very much.

Praying for you in Jesus.

Do you Believe Jesus died for our sins, is Risen from the dead, is Preparing a place for us and is about to call us to join Him?

Are you watching for Jesus in the Clouds of Glory? Jesus is about to call us to join Him!

We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

You can copy and paste this to pray every day and share...

There is nothing that happens for us that is bad. All things work for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!

Sing through out your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will over flow His Holy Peace in us.

Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.

I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.

Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.

Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.

Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.

Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.

Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.

Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Tachick]

I wish my life would end.

I wish to cut myself again. When I came to Jesus I tried to stop.

Harming myself is the only thing that feels ‘right’ to me though. I feel like I deserve it, and seeing myself cut up like I did in the past is a thought that won’t leave my head. I’d like to make more scars on my body and hurt myself.

I have heard that I am a precious daughter to God and should not hurt myself, but I have never been precious to anyone. My own mother would hurt me horrifically.

Her anger, humiliation, the ways she’d hit and assault me.

No one thought it was wrong. Sometimes other family would hit me as well. I would be choked, or picked up and dragged around like a doll. I’ve been whipped, beaten, and bruised .. it was nothing.

No one cared. No one cares to this day. Instead I was told that I was curse who ruined their life. I shouldn’t have been born. That I was worthless, and should kill myself. I would never be loved so I should stop looking for it.

After so many years — no matter what God’s word said ..it was hard not to believe them. How can I ever forget?

I tried to keep going for God. I was told He had plans for me so I did my best to live. Then something so ..horrible happened to me I cannot speak it. It made me want to end my life.

I am so lonely. I have no one …not family or friends. Other than God I am entirely alone. No one understands that it hurts to just be alive and breathing. I cry every night to God.

It’s like I have third degree burns all on the inside of me.

If I must be alive ..then I can thinking of nothing but to hurt myself. I can not see myself as precious. Everyone has always hurt me. It’s all I know, and has become a comfort to me. I have never felt a human touch that didn't hurt or scare me.

I try to read of God’s promises in His word …but I am tired. It is dark. The words feel empty, and I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone. I am trying SO hard to live, but I don’t think I can.

I just wish I could just close my eyes and not wake up. That’s all.

I’m sorry if these words were too honest …I do not mean to upset anyone and apologize if they were. It’s just the truth that’s been in my heart for a very long time.

I do not think any will see this.. but if you say a small prayer for me I thank you very much.

Please message me anytime. I understand you. Many times I think about it myself you’re not alone I’m praying for you. It will get better in Gods time. .message me. I’ll listen.

 

[Mrs.JR]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Konstantina Kat]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Let Us Pray: God I ask You in Jesus' name bless me with everything I stand in need of, and everything You want me to have. Bless me to prosper, have excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Heal me in every area of my life. Let Your Word be a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. God bless me with Your favor, knowledge, wisdom, peace, protection, prosperity, strength, and success in all You have called me to do. And bless me to do all You have called me to do in the spirit of excellence for Your glory.

Bless me with the strength, desire, and passion to always delight myself in the Lord, seek first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness. Bless me to know You, love You, and live my life to please You. God cleansed me of everything in my life that breaks your heart. Let me be a light in this dark world, lifting You up in the lifestyle that I live. Let the world see that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Lord of ALL of my life. Let the joy of the Lord be my strength. Protect me God from all the plans of my enemies and the enemy of my soul. God all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, those I love, care about, those who truly love me, care about me, want Your best and pray Your best for me. God please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Thank You Lord Jesus. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so in Jesus' name. Prayer was written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

The dark moments of our life last only as long as is necessary for God to accomplish His purpose.

Dark Moments Of Our Life

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[usha rani]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Elvis Patrick]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Tachick]

I wish my life would end.

I wish to cut myself again. When I came to Jesus I tried to stop.

Harming myself is the only thing that feels ‘right’ to me though. I feel like I deserve it, and seeing myself cut up like I did in the past is a thought that won’t leave my head. I’d like to make more scars on my body and hurt myself.

I have heard that I am a precious daughter to God and should not hurt myself, but I have never been precious to anyone. My own mother would hurt me horrifically.

Her anger, humiliation, the ways she’d hit and assault me.

No one thought it was wrong. Sometimes other family would hit me as well. I would be choked, or picked up and dragged around like a doll. I’ve been whipped, beaten, and bruised .. it was nothing.

No one cared. No one cares to this day. Instead I was told that I was curse who ruined their life. I shouldn’t have been born. That I was worthless, and should kill myself. I would never be loved so I should stop looking for it.

After so many years — no matter what God’s word said ..it was hard not to believe them. How can I ever forget?

I tried to keep going for God. I was told He had plans for me so I did my best to live. Then something so ..horrible happened to me I cannot speak it. It made me want to end my life.

I am so lonely. I have no one …not family or friends. Other than God I am entirely alone. No one understands that it hurts to just be alive and breathing. I cry every night to God.

It’s like I have third degree burns all on the inside of me.

If I must be alive ..then I can thinking of nothing but to hurt myself. I can not see myself as precious. Everyone has always hurt me. It’s all I know, and has become a comfort to me. I have never felt a human touch that didn't hurt or scare me.

I try to read of God’s promises in His word …but I am tired. It is dark. The words feel empty, and I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone. I am trying SO hard to live, but I don’t think I can.

I just wish I could just close my eyes and not wake up. That’s all.

I’m sorry if these words were too honest …I do not mean to upset anyone and apologize if they were. It’s just the truth that’s been in my heart for a very long time.

I do not think any will see this.. but if you say a small prayer for me I thank you very much.

I wish my life would end.

I wish to cut myself again. When I came to Jesus I tried to stop.

Harming myself is the only thing that feels ‘right’ to me though. I feel like I deserve it, and seeing myself cut up like I did in the past is a thought that won’t leave my head. I’d like to make more scars on my body and hurt myself.

I have heard that I am a precious daughter to God and should not hurt myself, but I have never been precious to anyone. My own mother would hurt me horrifically.

Her anger, humiliation, the ways she’d hit and assault me.

No one thought it was wrong. Sometimes other family would hit me as well. I would be choked, or picked up and dragged around like a doll. I’ve been whipped, beaten, and bruised .. it was nothing.

No one cared. No one cares to this day. Instead I was told that I was curse who ruined their life. I shouldn’t have been born. That I was worthless, and should kill myself. I would never be loved so I should stop looking for it.

After so many years — no matter what God’s word said ..it was hard not to believe them. How can I ever forget?

I tried to keep going for God. I was told He had plans for me so I did my best to live. Then something so ..horrible happened to me I cannot speak it. It made me want to end my life.

I am so lonely. I have no one …not family or friends. Other than God I am entirely alone. No one understands that it hurts to just be alive and breathing. I cry every night to God.

It’s like I have third degree burns all on the inside of me.

If I must be alive ..then I can thinking of nothing but to hurt myself. I can not see myself as precious. Everyone has always hurt me. It’s all I know, and has become a comfort to me. I have never felt a human touch that didn't hurt or scare me.

I try to read of God’s promises in His word …but I am tired. It is dark. The words feel empty, and I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone. I am trying SO hard to live, but I don’t think I can.

I just wish I could just close my eyes and not wake up. That’s all.

I’m sorry if these words were too honest …I do not mean to upset anyone and apologize if they were. It’s just the truth that’s been in my heart for a very long time.

I do not think any will see this.. but if you say a small prayer for me I thank you very much.

I hope you are doing better today. God loves you and will protect you