I am in serious debt and it is causing me a lot of shame and embarrassment. My business simply froze for close to 1 year now, and every effort to even diversify seems to fail. I know this is an afflication directed at my faith, as this storm concides with the time i took up a leadership role in my local church. i have prayed, fasted and did everythign i could think of, but i keep drowing in debt and misery. Now i have started have suicidal thoughts and i am scared. Funny thought crossing my mind, trying to tell me that God never cares for me. While i know this is untrue, but i cant see any way out of my misery. For example i prayed from around 3 to 5am this morning, slept back briefly and by the time i woke up, i was feeling so miserable and in so much depression. i am getting so much discouraged.