Rolcan
Disciple of Prayer
I am in serious debt and it is causing me a lot of shame and embarrassment. My business simply froze for close to 1 year now, and every effort to even diversify seems to fail. I know this is an affliction directed at my faith, as this storm coincides with the time I took up a leadership role in my local church. I have prayed, fasted, and did everything I could think of, but I keep drowning in debt and misery. Now I have started having suicidal thoughts and I am scared. A funny thought crossing my mind, trying to tell me that God never cares for me. While I know this is untrue, but I can't see any way out of my misery. For example, I prayed from around 3 to 5am this morning, slept back briefly and by the time I woke up, I was feeling so miserable and in so much depression. I am getting so much discouraged.