My dear I feel the same way...I too have been waiting on God to help me pass a certain important exam for me to relocate abroad for a job I was been offered years ago...o have written this particular exam over 10 times,I still keep failing.l almost feel like God doesn't love me like everyone else.I am feeling so disappointed right now, I thought I would be married and now since I am getting older I am concerned it will never happen. I don't know what to do anymore. I am also concerned because I don't have a job as of two weeks ago and have no idea what to get into for work. I just feel so weary, lost, depressed, and hopeless I barely have the energy and strive to keep going forward and moving like I used to have. I feel like my life is just one big rat race and a lost cause.
I live in shame I feel like a failure..
In The after life...if there was anything like that, I would plead to God yo make me somebody else and not me...I feel sooooo disappointed....sooooo left out....sooooo behind....oh what a feeling....May God give us a reason to testify oneday....