Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hi, I am from ### and I converted to Christianity in ###. The love for Jesus attracted me to him, but I thought I did blasphemy against the Holy Spirit and I am in anxiety till now. I am eating psychiatrist medicines and now my and my family is in a very bad situation. My dad is fighting for life on the death bed and I am not mentally okay and I have an incurable disease also and anxiety OCD. We don't have money for operation. In anxiety, I was afraid I am doomed to hell. In anxiety and anger, I cursed, blasphemed God, and did many things against him without knowing that he called me. He saved me from hell. If the Holy Spirit would not have drowned me, I would have been in hell for eternity, but now I feel sorry. I repented, but God is now totally silent. He is not answering my any prayers even for peace of mind or protection. When I came to Christ, I was feeling the joy of the Holy Spirit. That thing disappeared. I can't feel God's presence. I am doomed or God is angry. I can't understand. Please pray for me and my family. I am really sorry for my sins. I want God back in my life. There was a time that time he was answering all my prayers, but I listened to the lie of the devil and I am lost.