Rogyrut
Disciple of Prayer
Hey Team, First of all thank you for having a platform where I can send a prayer request, and english is my second language so pardon me for the mistakes, I don't know how to put this across, but I feel like I am a gay, and sorry to say but I genuinely feel like I have these feelings from my childhood. Sincerely, I don't know if there is any demon behind this , or some witchcraft happened to me when I was a child, or some generational curse..or some other reason But I am sure that I want to come out of these feelings, Could you please pray for me for this situation, As I am an Indian, I haven't told anyone that I have same sex attractions, and I believe I love one guy from very core of my heart, I always think about him, he has changed the prorities of my life. I come from a Hindu background who got to know Christ and got baptised as well last year. Things went really well when I was in fellowship with God for around 2 years, and I felt like I am free now, but now suddenly when I am away from the church gatherings I can feel the temptations coming back again in this pandemic. As I am from remote under developed area in India, my parents doesn't even know there is something like same sex attraction, I come from a very stereotype indian family , which has lot of moral values. I would rather die than my parents to know what I am struggling with. It makes the situation worse, I can't even open up to my local church as well, to be honest it's really taboo here. and I don't even want to be perceived like this. I am writing this to you guys because I know in the US it's a relatively common problem, so maybe you can help to come out from this feeling. I am ready to do whatever it takes to be a normal person. I believe I am being selfish here, who is asking for this prayer request when the whole world is suffering in this pandemic. I don't know if God also has priorities when he looks at the kinds of problems we are going through. I also feel bad sometimes to pray for this problem , when there are so many problems in this world. I hope I am not mean here asking God for help in this situation. Please pray for me , More than me Please pray for my family to know Christ, and be baptised in Jesus name. Thanks again, With Love, Anupam