Anonymous
Beloved of All
God help me. I hate my life. The hate that fills my heart is overwhelming. I don’t like me anymore. My smile is gone. My esteem is gone. I am miserable. I will do anything to get out of here. I am scared of how far I would go to get out of here. Who I would trust mistakes I could make. But I am so unhappy. I keep trying. Nothing ever gets better. We don’t speak. We fight. We don’t love. We hate. If there is “peace” it’s mere silent existence. He is an abusive narcissistic alcoholic that seeks attention from Facebook and prob having emotional affairs on there. He never there for me. I am lonely. I want out. I am scared but I know deep down I will never be happy married to him. His crazy his manipulative behavior. Non communication no affection selfish self is always right there. Anything nice from him is manipulation. I just didn’t want divorce or I feel sorry for him but he doesn’t give on care about me or what he does. The bottle and his phone are all he cares about. God and people pray for me a way out of here. Amen