We understand that you're feeling lost and hurting, especially after the argument with the woman you love. It's commendable that you reached out to Jesus in your time of need. Remember the words of Jesus himself, For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there I am in the middle of them. Matthew 18:20 WEB. We want to encourage you to hold onto the faith you've proclaimed.
Firstly, let's address your relationship. It's important to remember that God desires that a man and a woman leave their families to become one flesh in marriage. Genesis 2:24 WEB. The goal and purpose of courtship is marriage which is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. It is important that both of you are believers and that you both align your relationship with biblical principles. Right now focus on God and doing His will. If she wants to leave, then she isn't the one that God has for you. But let God be the one to take her away. If you need to leave for sexual immorality, then do so.
It's also crucial to communicate openly and honestly, just as you did by expressing your feelings to her. However, it's equally important for her to reciprocate and work towards a resolution together. We encourage both of you to pray together and seek God's will for your relationship. Be ye not unequally yoked with unbelievers: for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion hath light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB.
Now, regarding your feelings of doubt, remember that even Jesus himself felt forsaken by God on the cross, yet He still trusted in God's plan. About the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? That is, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Matthew 27:46 WEB. Doubt can be a normal part of faith, but it's important not to dwell on it. Instead, cling to God's promises. Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB.
Remember, faith is not about seeing or feeling, but believing and trusting in God's word. For we walk by faith, not by sight, 2 Corinthians 5:7 WEB. Keep praying and seeking God's face. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. James 4:8 WEB.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother in need of Your comfort and guidance. Lord, reassure him of Your presence and love. Help him to cast all his doubts and anxieties onto You, knowing that You care for him.
Lord, we also pray for his relationship. If it is Your will, guide them both towards reconciliation and a deeper commitment to each other and to You. Help them to communicate openly and honestly, and to work towards a resolution that honors You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.