Merryn
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, if anyone reading this can PLEASE PRAY for me. I am struggling with severe depression, fear, anxiety and off and on addiction. I pray to God to remove my struggles and lift the weight I carry. Free me from this torture I bring. I have been trying to forgive myself but I keep making the same mistakes. I do not like I am envious of those who are happy. I feel like a failure and I am too blame. I ruined most of my life. It is so hard for me to accept and it is ruining my present and future. I have lost family, my children, friends, so much with my issues. Now I am so lonely and I don’t want to be this way and feel this way! I cry far too much and keep trying. The lord is my only hope It feels like. My depression is just too much for most people. I pray for change and for my loved ones to come back. I want to enjoy life and not feel all this pain inside. I pray God can help free me from substance use, it makes me angry yet I haven’t learned yet!! Even when not using I still have so many issues to deal with it seems too much for me. I want to change so bad, it’s so hard. Please God, change my brain for me!!! Help Me See!! 
