Hebrews10:17(In Regard To This Account)
Humble Prayer Partner
Hello everyone. I don't even know where to begin touching base on what is happening with me. I'm past my breaking point and I need prayer and the Lord back into my life. First off, my living situation is beyond a train wreck; I'm a 19, almost 20 year old girl, live with my boyfriend, Steve, who is 28, our roommate, Samuel, who is 23, and our other roommate, Wes, who is 19, but he is not really involved here, but that's just to get my living basis straight. Sam is suppose to be my best friend, but me and him lately haven't got along; we fight like cats and dogs, and he also sees me as more than just a friend. I "Worked" with him in the same department at our job, but today, I just received a call as to me getting terminated. I loved my job, it is my first right out of high school... The reason of my termination is because of Sam and another co-worker, who was also suppose to be my other close friend, began spreading rumors and lies around our department about us. HR got involved, and decided to get on me because I am the only one who complained about nothing, and kept my mouth shut. Sam was the one cursing at me on the line and bringing me down daily; it's sad to see how one-sided people can be. I told him to simply leave me alone the rest of the day, but he continually teased me at work, so I spent the night at my one co-worker's house. She took what I said to HR, just about my fights with Sam, and they blamed me for it. I don't understand how, or why though... Next though, my boyfriend is being mean and unfaithful about the circumstance of me getting fired and me fighting with Sam. He's threatened to kick me out, or he has mentioned of him moving out. I don't know where I am to go from here; I just lost my job and am now losing my best friend, my boyfriend, and now my home... I've created plenty of mistakes; I never intended on moving in with my boyfriend and committing sinful acts with him, but there is no excuse; I only moved in with him so I could have carpool rides to work and back (he works at the same place, but in a different department). I don't drive, and the place I was living at before refused to give me rides to work and back, I worked 12 hour shifts. Also, that living situation was not so pleasant either, so moving with my boyfriend and my best friend was my best bet, and for my new amazing job... Now, it's all gone. I need prayer and guidance so much, although I don't deserve it. I believe that God can turn any situation around, but I am at a wall right now, confused, lonely and unsure of anything. Thank you to anyone who reads this long post. Amen.