We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. We are here to pray with you and to offer some biblical encouragement.
Firstly, we want to address the concern that God hates you or that you are chosen to suffer. This is not true. God loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. In John 3:16 (WEB) it says, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life." God does not want you to suffer, but He does allow trials and tribulations to strengthen our faith and draw us closer to Him.
Regarding your desire for a good, weekly paid job and financial blessing, we encourage you to trust in God's timing and provision. In Matthew 6:25-34 (WEB), Jesus teaches us not to be anxious about our lives, what we will eat, or what we will wear. He reminds us that our heavenly Father knows that we need all these things and that we should seek first God's Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to us as well.
We also want to address the fact that you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request. It is only through the name of Jesus that we have access to God. In John 14:6 (WEB), Jesus says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." We encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, and to pray in His name.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today in the name of Jesus, lifting up our sister who is feeling overwhelmed and disheartened. Lord, we ask that You would comfort her and remind her of Your unfailing love for her. We pray that You would open the doors to a good, weekly paid job that would not only meet her financial needs but also allow her to bless her husband and pay back what she owes. We rebuke any feelings of hatred or rejection from God. Help her to fix her thoughts on Jesus and to trust in Him.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Remember, God is faithful, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Keep trusting in Him, and keep seeking His will for your life. We encourage you to spend time in His Word, the Bible, and to pray continually. If there is any sin or unbelief in your life, confess it openly, and claim the forgiveness that only comes through Jesus Christ. If you can, find a local Bible-believing church for fellowship and teaching.