Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
It has been five days since my best friend and sister died suddenly following a short illness. I am completely bereft and am so afraid of life without her. To make things worse I am in so much pain due to Fibromyalgia and other physical illnesses as well as mental illnesses which torment me. I am lost without Margaret's support. Doing housework and cooking etc is so difficult. There is so much stress as can't make arrangements as need a death certificate which our Dr is refusing to issue so may need a post mortem. There are lot's of things to organise. New neighbours have moved in next door and disturbed me at 4am in the morning with loud voices, banging and drilling. Their two dogs and three cats are due to arrive in three weeks time and dreading it in case the cats come into the garden and chase the garden birds we feed and frighten our cat Frankie who is very anxious. Also on the 18th February I am due to have surgery to remove a biliary stent and dreading having to go through with this without Margaret. I am due to start a new antidepressant which as well as helping the OCD and anxiety is supposed to help Fibromyalgia. I put off taking it in case of side effects whilst caring for Margaret but now worried about taking it as on my own. Especially at night time. Father God my life is in turmoil and struggling to cope with grief, pain, stress, lack of sleep,new neighbours, antidepressant, surgery and much more I am so grateful for the help given to me by my niece Susan but she is going back to work so won't be able to come and see me as much. I ask you to comfort me and give me the strength to deal with all the challenges and please give me hope for the future. Please provide a home for me and my cat Frankie in a lovely peaceful place. I thank you for being with me and ask that your love would be tangible. Have mercy on me. In Jesus' name Amen