Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health a new home a new car a new job a new iPhone I pray for my body to heal and go back to normal I pray for protection from my enemies I pray for better days I pray for protection from the guy next door I felt as if he’s been attacking my body for a while now I can feel him sitting on the opposite side of the room behind the wall coughing and it’s like he’s listening to my every move especially when I lay down I felt as if he did something to my eyes and to my fingers I pray for protection from him I felt as if he also did something to my private area when I opened my door I would rush and he would be turned around and his private area is like he’s walking farther away I don’t trust him even when I was inside of the bathroom and I was using the bathroom he was behind me and my foot had made a mistake and kicked the paper that was next to me on the floor he started saying woo and started moving around as if he accomplished something then he started walking out in the hallway as if he was this guy even when I would see him when I would be outside he would always be walking like he was this guy I don’t think he likes me I pray for a new home so I don’t have to live next door from him I’m staying inside of my brothers old room and I don’t want to sleep inside of here I want a room that’s more feminine and a room that I can have of my own my mother let me stay in here she always inside of her room me and her don’t get along that well I don’t really like her she wished bad things on me and talked and said that she would rather have my friend as her child then she would talk about all the things that other people had that bothered me and stressed me out now she’s trying to make me get on ssi so I can get money and not have to work I can work though I’m not disabled and I don’t want to just use the system for income when I can work and make twice as much as their giving me I pray that I can find a job so that I can work I pray to heal from schizophrenia and to become a better happier version of myself I was sick for a while I used to be calm and be a good woman I let her get the best of me I felt as if she always would interrupt my sleep and she would always be angry at things that I would do I was depressed for a long time I don’t like feeling that way I want to be happy not sad I pray for happiness peace love forgiveness from all of my past sins it’s like this woman didn’t want me to speak whenever I’d talk she would always say things and make comments and would try to cut me off she would always say I was crazy she called me crazy because their was a fly in the living room and I was moving out of the way and she had said I didn’t see no fly when the fly was very visible then she got mad at me for reading a sign when we were in ny to help her get to where she had to go she was supposed to get surgery and when we found the place she started acting as if she was upset that I was speaking with people and that I was in happy spirits it was just bad she would always try and argue with me I couldn’t stand being around her even when I was by my grandmother house she had told her to allow me to talk she would be mad if my grandmother had talked I don’t know what her issue was I was sick though and I wasn’t myself I was stressed out I used to be around her all the time and I guess after being around her for so long it stressed me out she used to be angry with me when we would go to the mall if I had spoken my mind or had a different opinion of things she would be mad with me and want to sit inside the car she didn’t want to shop with me inside of the stores I felt like that was a negative flag right there she would get mad if I would change the music radio station inside of her car and she would tell me not to touch her radio she was very mean and I couldn’t stand it I pray for my own car so I could take myself places and be happy and not have to stress or worry of her no more she didn’t even want to teach me to drive she let her bf drive her car before me and I didn’t know how that worked out she treated him better than anyone and tried to act as he was this dude even when I went with her towards the hospital when I was a little younger she had started rolling her eyes at me when I started talking to his sister and she started to kiss her bf it was bad she had barely said anything to me when I was riding inside of the car with her she mad me very uncomfortable the energy was off she wanted to be this woman so bad then when we went grocery shopping she would get mad if she couldn’t pick up the groceries from out of the car I had to tell her that it was alright she would be upset then she invited people over the house I felt as if she was acting weird for a long time even when my little cousin had came over it’s like she was close with her I felt awkward and as if I wanted to escape and be somewhere else I didn’t want to be home when she had came over I felt like she was sipping her tea and she was treating the young girls as if she was a good person she started to change when she started dating her bf and I was the one who had told her to be with him I created her an ig then she started To act as if I didn’t help her she would travel with him he would open car doors for her and I would just be standing there trying to make sure that she got there safe and she would ignore me when he rode past me before and spoke she was on the passenger side she didn’t speak or say anything she let him do all the talking even when she would see me outside she would walk right past me and I would be sitting down inside of the parking lot I felt as if she could have helped me and made sure I had food and money but she didn’t she let me stay upset and let me go wherever I was going to she recently asked me if I was going for a walk and I feel as if she ask me that to piss me off and to mock me she said that I was crazy towards my brother a lot he would tell me soon as he would leave the house she would start arguing with me she told me that she wanted to crash the car when I was inside of it with her she would drive fast like a dude when I was inside of the car with her I didn’t know what was happening I felt scared afraid I felt like she thought she was prettier than me or thought she was badder than me because she had her car and would have her hair done and just ride around it was bad I was so mad all the time I felt like she wasn’t acting like a mother she was acting like a enemy she would always just act as she was this person and when I was talking towards my cousin she jumped in and acted lost and repeated what she had said and she had told her that she was speaking with me it was awkward and I wanted to get away from her even when she’s driving it’s like she has a bad sense of direction and start asking questions and asking me where to go I feel as if she should know how to get around her hometown she barely know how to do that and I don’t feel like I should have to tell her all the time where to go I pray that I get back to myself and heal and become a better person and I pray that I stop going to the bathroom on myself and start to relax and sit down on the toilet I was standing up and would get urine on my body and would have to change my clothes all the time I didn’t feel right or feel like myself I pray for a new home so I can get back to the person I was but a more healthier person I was surrounded by a bunch of negativity I didn’t like people even When I used to work I didn’t like people and I felt some girl used to stare at me when I was sitting down and it’s like she was trying to size me up I felt as if her and her didn’t really like me and when I was coming out of the building she was walking directly behind me I felt as if she was thinking the worst of me I would apply for jobs and I would always see her there I pray for a job that pays well I pray for a new iPhone I pray for my private areas to heal and go back to normal I pray for my body to go back to normal I had lost weight when I was sick with covid I was afraid of my brother around that time my brother and my mothers ex bf I was afraid of I felt as if they were both terrible people I just dont like men who take a long time to do things I hated myself I would sleep in between the mirror I would position my body to go in weird positions and now my private area isn’t the same I would travel and stay in hotels a lot it was bad I would just spend my money on hotels because I didn’t like my apartment I still don’t I used to feel as if ghost or evil spirits were following me around the building I pray for healing and pray for better days I pray for strength I pray to forgive my mother for not defending me and for treating me the way that she did she wasn’t always mean but most times she was I pray for healing and to get back to myself I pray for a new home so I can relax inside of my own bed and not have to sleep inside of anyone else’s bed I pray for my relationship with the guy I’m dating to be better I pray that he decides to get married and start a family and settle down I don’t want to move on I pray that he steps up and become a family man and that he becomes loyal and faithful I pray for healing from my past I pray to forgive myself for visiting hospitals that was too far for me traveling just so I could have a bed to lay down in I pray for my health to be better so I can take care of myself and relax and not just travel to the hospital for anything they used to put me inside of the psych ward my mother told them I wasn’t doing well they had me on medication that I would take I hated it and just wanted to be healthy I pray that things get better for me I used to stand at bus stops a lot catching buses to different towns trying to get away from home and people was strange acting I felt like I was too far away from home and one of the bus drivers told me that he was going to call the cops on me I pray to have money when I get on the bus and to not walk around stressed out all the time with out having no money I pray for a job so I could buy new clothes for myself and be able to provide for myself I pray for my teeth to grow back I pray to heal from mild scolios I pray to heal from flat feet I pray to get back to myself and not allow people to intimidate or disrespect me I pray for brighter days some people are evil and I don’t like that I pray for my dad to heal from his mental illness I pray for my sins to be forgiven I pray to let go of envy and jealousy I pray to move away from my neighbor he told me he wanted to help me I never asked for his help I don’t feel comfortable with a man offering me help that I never asked for he’s weird he was making a lot of noise before I could hear him coughing a lot that bothers me even with my mother I feel as if she’s very negative I don’t like that she tried to make me feel as if I had to be in the hospital or be with a program she made me feel stupid I felt less than and I didn’t like myself I felt very down very sad and depressed I wanted to kill myself I didn’t like myself because of how she treated me she was telling people that I was depressed for years she also told the police that I was suffering from schizophrenia she wanted to know everything about me she frustrated me I remember I was walking towards the hospital and she was walking in front of me and then she had gave me snacks to stay inside of the hospital I felt like she was weird and wanted to have control over my life and wanted to shut down my entire confidence I just didn’t feel comfortable around her I pray that I get back to myself I pray for my father to heal from mental illness I pray for better health