Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for my health to be better I pray to not spread lies I never did but I was talking bad of my cousin at her house with her stepfather and I didn’t feel right doing that she confronted me and told me that she heard me talking bad of her I want God to forgive me because I was at her house her mother had let me stay with them she didn’t like me this was before I started talking down on her I did it because she wouldn’t speak to me and she never said anything I always tried to help her and be there for her if she needed anything if she ever asked I felt like she didn’t like me as much she had mental issues before most of her childhood I pray that she can forgive me for talking bad of her I want to do better I was saying a lot of bad stuff about her but she used to move weird I just pray to heal and have my own space I want to live in my own apartment I don’t like the house that I live in now everyday I’m waking up doing the same thing I would read my Bible usually but I just felt as if things were slowly changing sometimes I pray for better and that I get back to myself and that I start to look and feel like myself again and for me to let go of fear and depression and anxiety I pray for better days I pray for strength and protection I pray for healing I never was on time hardly I would catch the bus to work I did show up on time most days I felt like towards the end I started showing up to work late I wasn’t getting rewards cards so they started to cut my hours working at my first job drained me I didn’t like it I hated the people that I used to work with a lot of them were fake and phony and not my cup of tea one Time one of the workers I told her something that someone said about her she went back and told the manager but she had got it mixed up and she had said someone else’s name I never said that that person said anything of her I felt bad for telling her she was scared and the manager didn’t know what to do and tried to stop all of the gossip and one of the girls that I was working with had said she would slapped the person that went back and told and I was the one who told I felt bad I just pray for forgiveness and healing and that I stop talking down on other people and learn how to better myself work and stay at work until I get my actual desires and actual outcomes I feel as if I was also working a lot of jobs I go to Amazon and try to work for them but they would be too far for me I spent $67 dollars just to catch and Uber to work I was getting paid almost 20 dollars an hr I hated it and just want to heal and find a stable job and stop complicating things I was all over the place and I was changing I wouldn’t wear socks with my sneakers my feet was cold I was at a warehouse I couldn’t afford socks I was rushing to get out of the house my mind was not ok I was using the bathroom On myself not brushing my teeth going to random strangers homes getting inside of random people cars it was very bad I pray for healing those situations didn’t turn out very well and one guy went through his phone and found a number that I had dialed he called up that person and tried to say I was at his house and telling that person to ask her where she was last night saying he recorded me inside of his bed and that the full video couldn’t Fit on some site he tried to make it seem as if I wanted him but I didn’t I never told him that I liked him or wanted to speak with him or anything he came up to me first he said he was blind and he was walking with a cane it was a older man and I was minding my business sitting down waiting for the bus and he was coming near Me then he said he recorded me that bothered Me I felt as if he was trying to get me caught up and trying to throw me under the bus I told him when I was at his house not to come near me and that I didn’t want him I went to sleep in his bed he slept in the living room then I woke up and he was walking around with his pants off I felt afraid like I lost my mind by coming to a strangers house I would never want to do that ever again because anything could of happened to me and I would probably have been not able to do anything then he had turned away when we woke up the next morning he started walking the opposite way he was upset that he couldn’t get with me he was way too old for me I just needed a place to stay I was out on the streets I chose to be out on the streets my aunt would let me live with her but I didn’t like her bf and wanted to leave I wanted my own space I didn’t like her neighbors I was going through a lot I was very anxious nervous stressed out I pray for strength and healing and that I start protecting myself more and taking better care of myself and loving myself more I let my cousin step on my feet without addressing her or doing anything to her she purposely stepped on my feet when I was bent over then she walked past me and bumped me she was trying to argue with me when her mother had her room door closed I didn’t know what that was all about but I wasn’t mentioning her all the time I said what I said about her because she would walk around like it was all about her and I used to could feel her moving around inside of bedroom I couldn’t stand being in the room next door from her or stand being anywhere around her I pray to get back to myself and heal and be a better person I miss the person that I used to be I don’t want to just casually date anymore I want a family a husband I want to be married and live happily ever after and follow my dreams and start living righteously I was dating a guy he told me he wanted to have more than one wife and he was going to take custody of the children if something happens that’s not how things should work I don’t want to be with nobody like that I pray for healing and for better days I pray for a new job I pray for a new car I pray for a new home I pray for strength and protection I pray for the attacks from the man upstairs to stop he’s attacking my body I could barely walk I feel anxious and nervous I’m depressed because of my life my body my health and my thoughts I just want better for myself I don’t want to fear no one I was stressed out for years walking around not having my hair done walking around to towns that was way too far for me and I felt alone I hated my house and I wanted to leave I felt as if I go to the park that I would find better but I didn’t I pray for brighter days I pray for healing I also felt as if something towards me when I was staying with my grandmother and my uncle I wasn’t looking like myself my hair hardly was done I was all Over the place living with everybody I felt bad for myself going to hospitals them just watching me or treating me with prescriptions and telling me to go my way I felt crazy people was saying that I was staring at them when I was at the hospital but I was not myself I was lost and didn’t like my home I pray for better days I pray for a new home one that’s inside of a good neighborhood I pray for a new job I pray for strength to be able to carry on days I feel Like harming myself because of my health I was afraid to be true to myself I hated myself For wishing death on my mothers bf and my mother I went to a psychic to try and get help she told me that I was going to kill myself and that the pain would become too much for me it took her a while to find things out I was telling her stuff she had to dig deep she said and find stuff out and meditate on things but I felt stronger I felt as if I wanted answers immediately and wanted to know if I would feel better but knowing now that only God can heal and it doesn’t cost anything all I have to do is be honest and talk and ask and tell him what I want and it shall be given I hated that I wasted my time going To psychics it was depressing even when I first went to a psychic a couple of years ago when I was in my twenties I hated life I didn’t want to kill myself but I wanted to know what was wrong with me I had a lot of questions concerns and worries I don’t remember everything but I want to be safe feel Protected and just be a happy woman I pray for healing I pray that God forgives me for visiting the psychic I pray for patience I pray for peace love joy and happiness I pray to get back to my height my normal size and not be stressed out I pray for my feet to go back to its normal size I pray for my teeth to grow back I pray to heal from depression anxiety and schizophrenia I pray for brighter days I pray for protection I pray to heal from my past I pray to forgive myself I pray for a new iPhone I pray for a new car I pray for better days I pray for healing I pray for my father to heal from mental illness