Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for my health to be better I am under attack by people by the neighbors that live in my building the elevator and the intercom that’s in front of the building I pray for protection I haven’t been myself I hear a lot of noise inside the building that I live in my brother me and him used to argue and fight a lot my mother wanted me to be sick so she could say she was the one who took care of me she used to say that she took care of me she didn’t like that me and my brother used to argue and fight but she would talk bad about me every time I would walk out of the apartment she would say bad things about my mental health she diagnosed me with schizophrenia she was telling people I had been diagnosed with a mental illness she said I was on medication she told my fathers step mother she talked bad about me to her mother she told her that I was staring at her a lot when I would be inside the house she said that I stand outside in the hallway she would allow the manager of the building to talk down on me she even allowed the man next door to talk bad of me I feel as if she had mental issues herself she didn’t want me to have my own bedroom she told me that I just wanted to have boys come over when really I just wanted my own space and to not be up under her the whole time I don’t want to come home to her all the time she used to slap me in my face when I was a child she used to get mad at me a lot if I’m mad at her she would never take accountability and she would try to make me feel bad for being upset with her she barely wanted to treat me for birthday outings she hardly ever complimented me she didn’t teach me how to drive she allowed her bf who she was with who I hooked her up with I told her to hit him up and just talk to him and she did then she tried to act like she didn’t know who I was I felt like she was competing with me if she was talking bad of me or ruining my reputation she was definitely trying to make me not happy I felt terrible stressed out sick for a while I want to be happy I feel old due to stressing from her and my brother it’s like I don’t know how to be happy no more I rarely ever smile I’m fighting with neighbors thinking that their doing something to me I hate it I’m staying inside the house my mother kicked me out her mother told her to take away the key and to not let me back in the house I was only sitting in the hallway there was nothing to do inside of this house I don’t like this house I want to move I pray for a job so I can work make money and be able to provide for myself I have gifts I can sing dance and teach I’m a really bright futuristic woman I pray that things get better for me I pray for brighter days I pray for strength and protection I pray to heal from all the trauma I’ve been through even staying with my grandfather I felt depressed I felt like my dad had his issues it was a lot happening my mother never was excited or happy about anything she talked down on my hair told me I was black because I was hanging out in the sun I felt as if something was wrong with her I pray for a new home so I can get away from the man across the hall I feel like he be listening through the walls him and another woman somebody was listening to me when I was trying to get inside the apartment building I would knock on the door for hrs and my mother would be asleep and she wouldn’t open up the door for me she would tell me to go by my aunts house I didn’t like it over there because that wasn’t my house and my cousin didn’t like me and made it awkward for me she’s sick she’s inside of a mental facility now majority of her life she’s been I’ll because she had insecurities of her weight she was suicidal I never had anything wrong or against her I just felt as if she was mean towards me and didn’t like me for some strange reason I never did anything to her she used to always pick on me and mock me and even talk down on me to my brother I pray that I can heal from family issues I pray that I can get a husband one day I would like kids I want to smile laugh talk to people like how I used to and just be happy my mother stressed me out she wasn’t even speaking towards me when I was not doing right she stopped talking towards me I would be doing a lot of things trying to get right but I would go to the park a lot I was stressed out I would travel to a whole different town I felt as if my mother would act weird her and my brother would move around the house weird I would catch buses to different cities a lot and my brother would say my mother would say bad things of me she told me I had schizophrenia she told a police officer that and he told me I looked normal I just pray that things get better for me she even let a police officer disrespect me she let her bf disrespect me every chance he got he would run his mouth to her and start talking about me and saying bad things about me there was some sick people out there I confronted him multiple times I would hear him saying how I was acting he would be moving real slow inside the house so I threw something in the garbage he told my mother that I was on his back when I wasn’t he also told me that I need to dress like a girl he told me that I need to work and That I need to help my mother she must of told of him I’m for certain she told him that I didn’t work or have a job she told him I didn’t help her out with groceries or that I didn’t want to give her no money but that’s not true I worked since I was 16 she helped me get a job and I had that job for a While I just pray that things get better for me I pray for a man that wants to spend time with me and not just have sex with me all the Time I don’t want to be with anybody who just want to use me for one thing I am not an object I want a real guy I pray for my health to be better so I can be happy and treat other people better I’m sad right now unhappy with my home I feel as If A man next door is attacking me and I don’t Like that i want to be healthy and happy I don’t be liking people because of the things I endured and the things that I went through with my mother and my brother she had my father thinking I was acting out she turned folks against me and made them think things of me that wasn’t true she told me once that she felt like crashing the car while I was inside of it she used to drive really fast and it was always weird being around her driving in the car with her she would always try to ask me where to go as if I knew where to go all the time and she would get angry with me and she would get mad if I open up my mouth to say something to whatever she had to say she would say that’s not what I said or what are you talking about I can’t ask her for nothing she barely bought me whatever I wanted she was taking $40 dollars out of my check when I was working and I barely was working or having money to spend to take care of myself I pray for better days I pray for peace happiness and brighter days I pray for my Hair to grow back healthy I cut it I was anxious and cut it uneven I pray for a car so I don’t have to catch the bus everywhere I would rather travel inside of my own car and work for myself I want to create a YouTube channel and I want to model and create my own clothing line I don’t want to just keep having casual sex with people I want to honor and spend my time in a more cherishable way where I can create memories and be fulfilled I pray for a new car so I can have space to put my groceries instead of carrying them on the bus filled with a bunch of people and barely having any space I pray for a new home so I can lay down and relax and be at peace I don’t want to date the guy I’m with no more I feel as if something is not right he was down for me but I feel as if I haven’t been honest with him about a lot of things and he makes me anxious he asked a lot of questions and it’s like he wants to keep us a secret I’m too old and grown to be someone’s secret I don’t want to play games with folks like that this man just Wants to make me feel like sex is the only thing we should be doing he talks of himself a lot about how healthy he is but he’s not the healthiest and he talks of women a lot and he told me he wants to be with more than one female I don’t want to be with a man who wants more then one wife that’s sick to me cherish the one woman you got I pray for my health to get better I just want to feel good and to be at peace I pray for better days I pray that my teeth grow back I pray for protection from the man upstairs I pray for my body to heal I pray I learn how to drive I pray for brighter days I pray for strength and healing I pray for my grandmother legs to heal