Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health I pray for a new home I pray for a new car I pray for strength and protection from my enemies I pray for protection from the man upstairs I touched my head and this man was following my head around he was doing something to my nerves and my body I don’t like him he’s trying to destroy my body when I was sleep laying down he was over me constantly dropping things above my head and I felt like I wanted to happy so I had took some pills and I had the energy to get up so this man started dropping things stomping doing everything to try to make me lay back down I was stressed out and afraid of him even whenever I see him on the elevator I don’t get on I wait to take the steps if I see him outside while I’m walking I’d get on the opposite side of the street soon as I walked I stepped down to cross the street he immediately turned around I felt like he was doing some weird things he would stand by the bus stop all the time catching the bus and I felt as if he thought he was better than people he’s a homosexual man I felt bad energy about him soon as I walk past him I felt as if he felt better walking with other women I couldn’t stand him and I felt bad about myself and bad about some other things I couldn’t stand a lot of people that lived in this area I just didn’t like them I had issues with women working inside of the supermarket I felt bad vibes and I just felt like they would be mad if I walk inside the store this went on for a couple of years I had a young girl who lived inside of my building who disliked me I didn’t even know her and I felt like Something was wrong with her I also felt like she was envious or jealous of me she used to turn around a lot and do things when I would turn to open up the door like she was aggravated I pray that things change for me and heal this building was the worst building to live in the manager told me Not to go upstairs to the man house because he could of been doing anything he was doing something I didn’t feel like myself I felt strongly as If he was doing voo doo on me something felt wrong with my body I didn’t feel normal I was scared To be alone inside Of my home I hated this house I hated my aunts house I hated being alone with strangers or with people I rarely know I wanted my own Place so I could be myself and be happy I didn’t want to live with anyone else I used to walk around a lot I would be in towns I barely knew about my cousin stepfather said he saw me in his hometown I just used to walk to different towns a lot because I hated my own hometown I wanted to be a better woman but I’m realizing now that you can’t find or look for peace in other towns it comes from within I pray for better days and that I start to look good and start to take better care of my health start to take care of my body I felt like I go back and forth with folks arguing with them and just being around negative people I pray for better days I pray to heal from my last relationship I pray for strength and protection I pray to stop going to different hospitals all the time I pray to forgive myself for traveling to different hospitals and trying to seek medical attention I felt like something was wrong with me I was anxious and not myself I used to worry a lot about people not liking me that kind of messed me up I felt like people were always watching me and staring at me I used to travel downtown a lot I tried to get on welfare before my mother works down there instead of working and just getting a job I tried to get welfare I would walk up and down the street I lived on and go to the park and do the same things all over again the next day I did that for almost All my twenties it was bad I was very nervous I had a lot of fear a lot of depression and anxiety I wanted better for myself but I was not right I felt as if people was afraid of how I had looked I must of looked crazy they was staring at me at the church because my hair wasn’t done it was so bad I wanted to look and feel better but I felt like I just wasn’t happy or able to it felt so hard to just do normal things I used to always fix my hair do my hair do my eyebrows workout I always did those things but it’s like something made me stop being were worried and concerned of me I hated myself I wanted better but didn’t know how to get it I was very focused on my mother and arguing with her all the Time that frustrated me and did something to my mind I felt like she was trying To help me but I ended up going down the wrong path I was not myself I stopped talking to friends because I felt as if they weren’t no good for me one of my friends betrayed me she knew that her sister was dating my ex bf and told my other friend that she knew and she went back and Told my ex who I was dating I felt like that was none Of his business he had got upset with me because This guy had texted Me when he was by my house he didn’t want to leave my house he called me the b word then he threatened to smack me he was not a good man when he saw me at the park he didn’t even want To speak with me then he ran off I felt like he used to be mad and upset all the time I didn’t even do anything wrong towards this guy then he got mad at me because we were walking and he started yelling and screaming at me he Told me to hurry up and walk faster when I was behind him I was walking I didn’t understand why he was rushing then I would see him staring at other women when we would be going out he started Saying stuff like he Not watching no one else but he was I was dating anybody I was on Facebook It was bad I was just posting things to post them I was on instagram too but I feel as if instagram Isn’t so bad as Facebook I hated social media I was nervous for my prom too my friend just did his own thing I pray that I heal and recover From low self esteem from fear stress and anxiety I pray that my mind heals and that I become a better person I let people project fear onto me and I used To always be nervous I was going with random men over their houses it was bad I was getting into cars with strangers it was very bad I pray that I begin to love myself more and start to take better care of myself I felt like a lady who I saw yesterday she was walking and so was I and she started to slow down I felt as if she was trying To intimidate me I felt like something was wrong with her she didn’t even know me but she would look at me strange it used to be a lot of women who walk around doing things like that a lot of negative women in high school I had an issue with a girl who would stare me all the time soon as I would walk past her she would just stare at me and she used to cheerlead and I felt like my bf only came to the homecoming game to be with other women it was very awkward I didn’t like that he was like that I couldn’t trust him then he would always be upset with me it was really bad I pray that my relationship with the guy I’m with gets better he’s a strong man he’s nice to me and he treats me well I pray that he changes his mind of wanting to marry more than one woman he’s not a bad guy I just don’t like how he wants to be with more than one woman I pray for better days I pray for my health to get better I pray to go back to my natural height I pray to heal from stress and anxiety I pray for my feet to go back down to its natural size I pray for my feet to heal from being flat I pray for my teeth to be healed and grow back again I pray for my ankles and my feet and toes to heal they look swollen and I just want healthy feet toes and hands I pray that I start to take my time and not worry or stress of people or not to be intimidated by them either I was intimidated by women when they would be driving one lady had stepped on the gas when I was walking as if she was about to run me over it was an Hispanic lady I felt like she was hating on me I pray to heal and to get back to myself I pray for my arms to heal and for my nerves to heal as well I pray for a new home and a new car and a new iPhone I pray for better days I pray for peace and happiness I pray for better days I pray for healing I pray for my voice to come back I pray for my nerves to heal I pray to heal from depression and anxiety I pray to let go of anger and sadness I pray for peace and happiness I pray for brighter days I pray to get back to myself I pray for my youth to come back and for my looks to come back I used to be so beautiful I pray that I start to look like myself again and to let go of mental illness and stress I pray for my father to heal from mental illness I pray to heal from living with my aunt I felt like her bf didn’t like me and he was mad that I was talking towards him when I sat down right next to him he was aggravated that’s all he used to do he would sit down on the couch and watch people all day he wouldn’t open the door up for me he would just sit there I feel like he thinks I’m nasty or not clean he was talking about me to my aunt about how he saw me use the bathroom on myself I had came out of the room and started running To the bathroom the back of my pants were wet and he saw it I felt like he would see it so I tried to rush but couldn’t hide the stain I pray to heal from mental illness and to be forgiven my mind was not right I wasn’t myself my mind was somewhere else my mind didn’t seem right or normal I was all over the place I was walking around in different towns doing my own thing trying to blend it it was bad the town I would travel To was way too far I don’t go that way anymore yesterday would have been my last day I just felt like me not having money made me not want to go no where until I had money cause anything could happen I could get stranded and get stuck out there unless I decide to walk I pray for healing and that I get back to myself I pray for a good job to work for so I can make money and be able to have things and be able to provide for myself I pray that I can buy vegan toothbrush and toothpaste with my own money I Pray for a new car I pray for better days