Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for my body to heal and for my health to be better I pray to be healed from mild scoliosis from flat feet from the tear in my back from anxiety and depression I was mad all the time I lived with my aunt and I wasn’t myself I felt like it was awkward living with her my cousin would stare at me all the time I’m not sure why she would walk behind me when I was trying to help her find a job she was not my cup of tea she made it very strange for me she had rushed me when I was sitting down at church and told me to stand up but I had things inside my hand and I was going to stand up eventually but I didn’t like the fact that she was rushing me as if she was my mother then she had offered my brother food when it was her mothers birthday and didn’t ask me if I wanted any I got into an argument with her when I was staying by her she was not my best cousin or interest she was to act like she was this person because she started going downtown to get her hair done and having income she knew I didn’t have any money and was staying at her house and didn’t offer me food she went downtown and bought food for her brother and not me she acted as if she didn’t even want me there I didn’t trust her or like that I’m a female so I felt that it was strange that she would act that way towards me and I used to see her with her mother a lot standing at the bus just seeing her used to bother me it triggered I would see her standing at the bus stop her and her mother it’s like she just didn’t care about me or want me around her she treated my brothers girlfriend better than she would treat me they would all go out to eat and wouldn’t invite me it was terrible I was inside the Room stressed out bent over having anxiety I felt when people would be inside the other room so I would stay inside the room a lot I overheard my aunts bf say that that was crazy I didn’t come out I was afraid of my cousin I didn’t want her watching me or staring at me she would stare at my feet when I would be laying down and I felt like she was listening towards me when I would be listening to music I didn’t like that it made me uncomfortable she even didn’t say thank you when I held the door open for her when she was coming inside the building She would sit on the porch with her mother but whenever I was there she would come back inside of the house she avoided me she would talk on the phone when I was inside the house with her and no one else would be there it felt awkward I didn’t like her I noticed they didn’t treat my cousin the way that they treated me they acted as if they were afraid of him he did his own thing he acted the same way when he was at my house he act strange he don’t answer to people I was calling his name and he ignored me he told somebody on the phone that I was going to the hospital a lot I kept going because I didn’t like my mother I felt like she was trying to tell me what to do all the time trying to control me and I have a mind of my own I listen but I follow whatever leads and guides me I know I like the truth I feel as if I betrayed myself by listening to people calling up psychics wasting my money I owe these people 500 dollars because the lady was talking on the phone and it went over by mins I felt as if I was far away from God and I wasn’t acting normal she was telling me of my apartment she told me it was haunted and I already knew that I saw ghost on the walls when we first moved here I hated it I feel like the man upstairs is intentionally walking around doing things making noise I don’t like living underneath him and would love my own place I don’t have to move to far I pray that LA gets restored back to how it was so I could move there one day just to be surrounded by palms trees or whatever that was my dream home I pray for a new home I pray for a new car my mother never taught me how to drive always want me to help her around with things but never want to help me drive and do things that’s going to benefit me I felt as if I could drive instead of catching the bus everywhere I was catching the bus for years walking around inside Of parks sitting down on benches somebody some man was stalking me he never came to that park before he started coming to the Park after that then he would talk towards me and sit down near me I didn’t like that or feel comfortable around this man then another Indian man years ago was following me when I was walking and started asking me if I could take me out to dinner he was acting as if he never dated anyone before then I saw him again when I was walking I just pray that things get better for me and that I heal it’s a lot of people out there who just be on a different time I pray for them and that I don’t ever have to be like that I pray for my health to be restored I pray for healing from all of my past sins I felt as if I didn’t like or trust people I pray for a new Job I applied for a job at Whole Foods I pray that I get it I pray that I’m able to start my own business one day and just work and make money I pray for better days I pray for protection and healing I pray that I stop traveling so far trying to find work and that I get a job closer to home I know a lot of people who travel far for work I did that and wasted tons of money on transportation and the income didn’t Amount to much I would quit before I start I wasted much of my time traveling trying to work for different Jobs I hated it I hated working for Amazon I worked there not for long and people were working fast and hard it wasn’t a bad job I just felt like it was for a man more someone who could lift boxes all day do different things and be okay with that I hated that and didn’t like it I pray that I heal and that my hygiene heals and go back To normal when I shower sometimes I don’t feel clean I look overweight I look huge Well big I gained weight from the medication I was taking I was at the mental hospital with a bunch of people who I didn’t know that triggered me people were dating I felt like I just wanted to be back to myself I wasn’t there trying to create friendships I felt like one of the staff members didn’t like me he started to say to me that I shouldn’t have had the door closed but my Roommate had closed the door she was doing It every time she would walk out of the room intentionally she would be on my side of the room singing when I would be trying to sleep I felt like she kept talking to me saying hi I didn’t like her or trust her she didn’t know me I don’t judge but something was not right with her I pray for my mental health to go back to normal I pray to not be afraid of people I pray for my body to heal so that I can protect myself from my enemies I felt heavy like I couldn’t pick myself up when I had used the bathroom on myself I laid down I felt stuck and glued to the bed my aunts bf had told her that I had used the bathroom on myself I was downtown using the bathroom on myself I sat down by a staircase the whole time and went to the bathroom on myself it was awful some Hispanic girl came out of her apartment and saw me and gave me new clothes to put on she was nice I pray I never just be standing around not having anywhere To go that’s not safe or be sitting next to strangers some lady also attacked me when I was standing at the bus stop and she said was inside of a gang but I wasn’t she was throwing me off and making me feel bad or trying to make me feel bad I didn’t even Know her certain towns are not safe or not the same some people have issues real life issues I don’t want to be around negative people like that I pray for strength and protection from this man and that I learn to become a better woman I feel as if he’s trying to attack my body he waits For me to move then he starts to move he was attacking my hands my feet my neck everything and causing me to not feel the same of myself I didn’t like him I felt like my arms felt loose wiggly and I didn’t have strength I felt like my entire body was being attacked by this man I couldn’t Stand him all I was doing was eating and watching tv when I would chew I would feel like somebody was over me I just pray for my health to heal and for my body to heal and for my mind to heal I Pray for a new job at Whole Foods I pray for protection from my enemies I pray for brighter days please help me and please be with me I pray for strength and protection from my enemies I pray For a new home I pray For healing from my past I pray for protection from my enemies this man upstairs is doing things on spite to mess with me and throw me off he’s sick Something is not okay with him than some man next door be listening to me while I’m inside The room through the walls people are not okay I pray for protection from them I pray for healing from all of my past sins I pray for me to not allow this man upstairs to throw me off or make me feel less than I’m a female he’s a Whole guy whether he’s straight or not if he’s mad at upset of his apartment or his life that’s not my fault don’t take it out on me because I never did anything to him he mad he don’t want me to sit still or to walk around in my house he don’t want me to use the bathroom or to even fall asleep he’s attacking me inside of my sleep and trying to start beef with me meaning fights he’s insane even walking past him out on the streets felt like he was always envious and jealous I felt as if he always had something about me he didn’t Like I could tell by how he would watch me and stare at me he was insane and I used to say hi towards this man all the time he just wouldn’t speak sometimes he would stand by the elevator door and have his back turned some people are evil I never did anything wrong to him he’s jealous and trying to intimidate me I would walk back and forth on my aunts porch even inside the house out of boredom and wanting my own place I want to feel okay and feel at peace I don’t want to die no time soon I want to be able to live out my fullfillments in life and accomplish my dreams I want To be happy there’s a lot of folks out there who’s jealous because of how you look and how beautiful you are I pray that I get back to myself and start taking better care of myself I pray for a husband I pray for self care for me to start taking better care of myself stop running around everywhere I pray for brighter days I pray for a new home so I can have my own room that I didn’t have growing up I’m thirty now and would like my own space I couldn’t even enjoy myself inside of my 20s I was arguing and fighting with my mother I feel as if she don’t like me she was always mean when I was younger and just not a good woman not to sound psyched out or crazy something was just not right with her and I felt unlike myself she made Me catch the bus alone instead of taking me To homecoming she had a truck she made me catch the bus she could Or driven me there I felt bad out Of place and unlike myself Something def was not right I pray for strength and healing I pray to start my own business one day to be a model to start my own YouTube channel and to create content I pray for my teeth to grow back I pray that my teeth be restored back to excellent health I wasn’t taking care of my teeth and something felt off it didn’t Seem right then this man upstairs I felt Like he was standing over me when I was chewing I felt that and didn’t like it I felt as if something was Wrong with him and that dog I used to see him on the elevator and I felt as if something was wrong with him I felt as if my body was reciprocating To whatever he was saying he was a very toxic guy I feel as if my insides are being attacked my face my body everything I don’t like him I pray for brighter days I pray for healing it’s a lot of sick people out here in the world and I don’t have time for it I’m not sick or anything like that I had a phase where I was talking to myself trying to follow the law of attraction I wasn’t myself I felt as if something was wrong with me I was working jobs I hated that were barely paying me enough one of the managers when I was working started talking bad of me he had gotten mad with me because I started to tell a customer that the items she thought was a specific price he got mad at me and told me not to speak or say anything To the customers and to come and get him I quit that job I saw them sitting around talking bad about me multiple times and the woman that worked there Told me to say something and speak up and Let them know some people need to know I pray I get a job at Whole Foods I pray for my body to heal I’m being under attack by the man that lives upstairs from me he’s following me all throughout The house he wants me to be asleep late night and I don’t like that I had picked my head up when he was walking around he started Dropping things down like he knew I had lifted up my head my head my head felt heavy I felt afraid even lifting my legs up I felt weak I don’t feel athletic or fit I want to be back in shape majority of my life j played sports and loved them and would like To get back into working out and taking good care of myself it feels heavily even when I read I don’t feel like a normal woman or when I talk I pray that everything goes back to normal I pray that I get back to myself I pray for my face to stop twitching I pray to not travel so far looking for work or trying to find peace that comes from God and not this world I pray for brighter days I pray for strength and protection I pray to not be envious or jealous of anyone I pray to start my own business one day I want to work and make content on YouTube making healthy videos and doing healthy things I want to be a better woman a more fit and healthier person I had let myself go I was so mean and upset with people all the time never smiling or being happy judging people and not liking myself I was always angry I hated my life I want to go back to school one day I pray that I can I pray for healing and protection i pray for a new car I pray for a new iPhone I pray for my body to heal and go back to normal I pray for my health to be better