Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health I pray for a new home I pray for brighter days I pray that my bladder heals I can’t seem to redeem myself for when I have to go to the bathroom I pray for my body to heal I pray for my nerves to heal ever since a few years ago I’ve been really stressed out and I haven’t been feeling like myself I want to heal I want my body to feel better so that I can workout and walk around and talk myself shopping I’ve been walking around at places further than home always catching buses to visit urgent cares and hospitals they thought that I was on drugs at the urgent care when I told them what was going on with me I was stressed out for years I hated my home I hated staying with my mother and my brother I felt as if they were moving strange and I didn’t like them when I was sleep my mother would move my feet she awoke me and positioned me to sleep in a certain way she was wearing my t shirts and using my hair gel and copying off everything that I used to do she tried to be like me and that kind of ruined my self esteem and my confidence I hated riding with her inside of her car I felt as if she was competing with me I hated it I pray for better days I pray for healing ever since she started dating her ex bf who died she started thinking she was this woman I couldn’t Stand being around her she used to always ask me if I like her hair she knew I wasn’t feeling her but kept asking me things trying to make me talk with her she betrayed me and she moved her ex bf inside of the apartment and I couldn’t stand him I didn’t want no grown man Living with us I felt as if I should have had my own spot instead of living with her I hated her I just pray for brighter days I pray for healing from all the bad things that I’ve been through she stressed me out for years not wanting to support me or see me do good she didn’t even want to support me for my graduation me and her had got into a fist fight because she attacked me with a broom and tried to hit me with it she was tripping I felt as if something was not right with her I always felt like that for a while now I felt as if something was wrong with her she asked me to fix her hair when she had just gotten her hair done and she got upset with me because I told her that I wanted to take out the garbage because that’s what I had planned on doing already before she had even came inside the house and she had gotten upset with me and she wanted me to help her right then and there then there was another time she had got upset with me I was working and I had just got off of work and wanted to shower she had asked me for money and I told her that I’d give it to her once I got out of the shower she called my grandmother and told her I didn’t want to give her money and how she didn’t want my money if she if I didn’t want to give her my money then saying she wasn’t asking for a lot that woman would stress me out then when I would buy fruit for myself or for the house she used to ask me where I got the money to get it she would watch me when I would be inside of my brothers room she would sit by the kitchen table just watching me I pray for a new home so I don’t have to deal with her I would usually just shut the door when she start cleaning up I hated her and how she would treat me I felt like I always would have an issue with her and that I couldn’t really be comfortable we used to share a room I would see her watching me and rolling her eyes at me when I would walk past the mirror there was also a young girl who would ignore me whenever I would speak with her she had issues she used to talk on her phone and sit in the hallway a lot with another girl and the girl she was with had to say she’s speaking to you and she decided to say hi she’s not the best girl I was trying to smile and be friendly towards her because my mother knows her father and her mother but she was acting weird around me and when I would open up the front Door she would do things with her feet and she would make faces behind my back and roll her eyes at me and when her brother was on the elevator with her and she saw me she had grabbed him tighter I pray for a new home and that I get back to myself I don’t like people well majority of the people that lived inside of this building I didn’t like me and my brother didn’t get along he apologized though I felt hurt traumatized from all of the things that I been through with him I felt like he was jealous of me and that he was controlling and possessive he was mad I had a bf mad I worked and had a job and was Able to buy myself things I just couldn’t stand him I just pray for brighter days and I pray that you heal me from everything I’m going through God I pray for my body to heal I pray for protection from my enemies For a few years now I have been going back and forth with the man upstairs I feel as if he’s strange he was following my head when I was walking and he walks across his room floor when he’s upstairs inside of his apartment and I just Feel like he’s real strange he was following my nerves around I pray for a new home I don’t want To move too far but I pray to move into a better home in a better neighborhood I pray for a husband one that would cherish and love me I pray for my health to be excellent so that I would be able to take care of myself I pray for my nerves to heal for my health to be better I pray for my neck to heal for my face back feet arms hands everything I pray for it to heal I pray that I get the job at Whole Foods I pray that I do well I pray for my own home I feel Like my mom complains too much not saying she’s not right but I don’t need to hear all of that all of the thing she complains every moment that she walks into the house I was afraid of her and very nervous to be myself around she was calling me names and talking down on me for a long time she was doing her own thing I just pray for healing I want my own Place one day I pray for my hygiene to heal and be better I pray for healing from all of my past sins I pray for my private area to heal I feel like I was having muscle spasms down there it felt weird ever since me and my brother would be in the house alone I felt as if he Would listen to me when I would lay down and he would open up the door real slow when I would be inside the house he got a restraining order on me years ago after me and him had got into a fight I spent majority of my 20s arguing and fighting with him I couldn’t even enjoy myself I pray for healing for strength and protection there’s a lot of messed up people out here and I don’t want to be messed up I want to do the right thing and be righteous I pray for a new car I pray for a new home I pray for strength and protection I pray for my nerves to heal I pray for protection I pray for healing from my past from dealing with toxic friends and being around negative people people was envious of me and treating me badly my ex bf used to scream at me a lot and be upset with me I pray for a husband one day I pray for my hygiene to be better I pray for strength and protection I pray for protection from the man upstairs he is strange and I don’t like him and I feel bad vibes with this man I just pray for brighter days I pray that I am healed from everything that I’m going through I want to change and be a better woman I was mean to a lot of random people sitting Around in buildings on my laptop which wasn’t bad but after a while it started to get bad my mother kicked me out she said I kept coming in the house too late and she started telling my grandmother things about me that I didn’t like and I would hear her talking about me while she was on the phone with her that lady is mean I don’t like following her rules but I don’t do anything to break them I follow them it’s like she’s always upset and angry I pray for better days I pray my body comes back and that I start to heal I miss this guy I saw sometimes I think of him I felt as if it was love at first sight he was very handsome and I loved his hair but I don’t know if I’ll ever see him again I’m with a man right now but I don’t know if he’s the one I want to be with I feel as if he’s not satisfied or he wants me to do better I have a sickness going on I was diagnosed with schizophrenia they said that I was paranoid I was stressed out not working seeing things on the walls I felt as if ghost were inside the building that I live in I know I saw things but I never saw things that seemed unreal I pray for my mind to clear up and heal so that I don’t be stressed out over people and ghost and plenty of other things my grandmother mistreated me when I was staying with her her and my mother was saying bad things about me and talking bad of me I didn’t even do anything I pray for my health to get better I pray for brighter days if my hair was in a ponytail they would talk bad about me and have something to say they were very negative I pray that I get back to myself I used To catch the bus all the time never having any money and some of the bus drivers recognized me and one bus driver threatened to call the Cops on me another bus driver threatened to call the cops on me because I asked him where he was going he was mad I didn’t know where I was at and I asked him if he went to a specific address and he got upset with me and threatened to call the Police on me I pray for a new car I have my drivers license but I haven’t driven a car my mother act as if She didn’t want Me To drive her car she kept standing me up when I used to work saying that she would help me and never did some people are just not okay I pray for my own car one day so I don’t have to catch the bus so I can be comfortable driving to wherever I need to go I pray that my teeth grow back I wasn’t brushing them and they started to come out their very painful as well I pray for my stomach to go down and For me to lose weight it seem as if whatever I do I just can’t seem to lose weight I feel as if the medication I was taking damaged my body Covid too I had covid a couple of years ago and I feel as if that threw me off and messed up my body I hated that I felt that way my mother got me sick I slept in her bed and she had covid I was staying by my grandmother house and she had told me To go home and be with her then I layed in her bed and I had got it I felt as if I used to always take care of myself I had a job and was even working I felt like bad things rarely ever happen to me especially catching Covid that was different I felt afraid and now taking This medicine that they give me for mental Illness is messing With my brain my thought pattern and my weight I’m having twitching I gained a bunch of weight and it’s like all I ever wanted to do was eat and sleep I didn’t Talk to nobody inside of them mental Hospitals i did but I didn’t like them or trust them I wanted better for myself and taking medication every morning first thing when I wake up and before I go to bed having a nurse give it to me made me feel bad I felt angry depressed I felt as if I damaged myself emotionally spiritually I didn’t like myself I felt as if I betrayed myself I used to talk to myself a lot it was bad I would sit in parks and speak with myself I worked at a job I hated barely was bringing in any income making less than 300 dollars a week and I didn’t like my apartment I hated living with my mother it’s like she was evil mean always bossing me around trying to tell me what to do instead of allowing herself to have fun and relax and have patience she was always angry I couldn’t stand staying here with her and she would always scream at me and attack me I don’t know why and when we get around other people she used to start behaving different ever since I was a child I had issues with her not wanting to include me in things not inviting me to family outings not even speaking towards me during family outings and speaking to other people talking bad of me to her mother and everyone Else sending her brother pictures of me when I would use the bathroom on myself trying to turn him against me or convince him that I’m sick and not who he thought I was she would talk bad about me to doctors and nurses telling them I wasn’t Showering or I wasn’t doing what I was supposed to be doing she was strange she would always leave the house when me and her would get into arguments or if I would try to speak with her I couldn’t stand her and wanted to move so I could have my own and not have to argue or fight with her she didn’t have the tv on for months and had it turned off and I couldn’t Watch my shows or even watch the news I didn’t have no phone or anything it Was very bad and I hated being around her I pray for brighter days I pray for a new home I pray to move to a good neighborhood I pray for my body to heal I pray for a job at Whole Foods I pray to be protected from the guy next door and across the hall I pray to heal from flat feet I pray to heal from the tear in my back I pray For brighter days I pray for strength and protection I Pray for my father To heal from mental Illness