God Hates Me, And Always Has!

[bluebirds38]

DEAR LORD, I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS AND HEAL TINA. I PRAY THATY YOU FILL HER WITH YOUR PRESENCE AND BRING PEACE TO HER. I PRAY THAT YOU INCREASE HER FAITH IN YOU TEN FOLD. IN JESUS NAME AMEN

 

[Katintransit]

I want to thank everyone for their prayers, but I have decided to commit suicide. Today I got some awful news from my mother and father that I can't come home, even though I'm sick and get sicker everyday. I can't go back to work, I'm in way too much pain and my face is totally different now on the right side. I'm getting sleeping pills tomorrow from the store and hope they don't suspect anything. I will go quietly. I'm open about this and not really emotional today, because I realize that my family and God have hated me so much and I don't have any other alternative. I'm tired... really tired. I called the suicide hotline only to have each person I talked to get irritated because I think they have a time limit, and it had only been like 5 or 10 minutes for each call. No one understands and I'm tired of being strong and hiding my emotions for my family.

Getting that voicemail from my mother today, stating that I can't come home, that she's caring for my grandfather and she can't take me on, was a HUGE BLOW for me. I now know that my mother never ever loved me, even when she used to tell me to love myself and then talk to me any kind of way. I never felt like I belonged on this earth, Ive always felt like I was in hell on earth.

What I want you all to realize when I do take my own life is that some things are out of another's control. We all hurt, but some of us hurt worse, especially when you never get the formula or that calculation that everything may be "ok". I was dealing with one thing after another, a mental illness, physical illness, the fact that I'm always alone, and no one understood. No matter how many treatment facilities they could have put me in to make me feel ok, I just wasn't. I never had anything to look forward to. So everytime I was released from a facility I was worse off than before I went in. I had taken every medication, and those failed. I think in my heart, I was never meant to be here. God let me down, seriously.

What would I have wanted out of this life. Well I would have liked to have been a mother, or known love. I had a kind heart, and I just wanted to love and vica versa, but was never given the opportunity. With God, he would trick me, always mocking me, he gave up on me like everyone else did.

Goodbye.

 

[Sundarj]

Dear lord our father today i ask for forgvnes for tina lord plz forgv her lord today i humble my self for tina my sister lord u knw the pain of suffering lonely n betrayful life inspite of being so gud with other father plz . Father i cum against the evil spirit tht are cuming in the way of my sister i break thm in the name of JESUS lord plz help us trust only in u plz lord we have no 1 except u plz father in JESUS name i ask AMEN!

 

[silentangel]

Tina, God don't make junk! Every person alive past, present and future is a gift. Each one has a destiny, a plan and a purpose for their life. You hate yourself so you have let yourself believe that God hates you too.

You are decieved. It is a lie from the enemy and you have claimed it. I rebuke the lie. I bind it and cast it into the pit. Tina, God loves you so very much. He does not place conditions on your life for your love and devotion to Him. Release the negative thoughts and let Him begin to start working in your life. You will be astounded at the blessings that will come to you by His hand of mercy and grace.

Lord Jesus, I stand before your throne today with a heavy heart for Tina. I ask for a Christmas miracle on her behalf. I ask that you turn her life around, that you place your hand upon her and show her the way. I know you have plans, mighty plans, for her life. May you begin to reveal them to her in such a way that she will know it is only from you. Let your mercy and grace wash over this woman and may she feel your presence as healing begins to take place in her life. I stand with her and reach out to you, Lord. To you be all glory, honor and grace. We bow down before your magnificent throne and lift up holy hands in worship and in faith. Pour out your blessings as only you can. I love you, Lord. Thank you and praise you. Amen

 

[bluebirds38]

TINA SILENTANGEL IS RIGHT, YOU HAVE BEEN DECIEVED BY THE ENEMY AND LIED TO. I KNOW IT'S HARD AT TIMES, BUT GOD IS WITH YOU, WITH GOD ALL THINGS IS POSSIBLE, HANG IN THERE AND HAVE FAITH, I AM 38 AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN MARRIED AND NEVER HAD A GIRLFRIEND, AND I HAVE A RARE HEART CONDITION, BUT MY FAITH GETS ME THROUGH BECAUSE I KNOW THAT GOD IS WITH ME AS HE IS WITH YOU, GOD HAS PLANS FOR ALL OF US. SUCIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER,

DEAR LORD I PRAY THAT YOU PROVIDE TINA THE MIRACLE SHE NEEDS. I PRAY THAT YOU BREAK EVERY TYPE OF BONDAGE THAT SATAN HAS ON TINA, I PRAY THAT YOU FILL HER WITH YOUR PRESENCE AND GIVE HER THE STRENGTH TO GO FORWARD WITH HER LIFE AS A SERVENT OF GOD, I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS HER ABUNDANTLY AND ANOINT HER, I PRAY THAT YOU WATCH OVER HER AND PROTECT HER, I PRAY THAT YOU HELP HER TO RELIZE NOT TO TAKE HER OWN LIFE, HELP HER TO RELIZE THAT IT'S SATAN TRYING TO DECIEVE HER AND LIE TO HER, I PRAY THAT YOU PROVIDE FOR HER NEEDS, I ALSO PRAY LORD THAT IF SHE TRYS TO TAKE HER LIFE, THAT SHE WILL FAIL, AND RELIZE NOT TO TAKE HER LIFE, I PRAY LORD, THAT YOU COME TO HER IN DREAMS AND VISIONS, PLEASE LORD GUIDE HER TO THE LIGHT OF GODS TRUTH, IN JESUS NAME AMEN.

 

[silentangel]

Tina - In the beginning God created...... and saw that it was good. He delights in His creation and that includes you, his child. I reach out to you today and ask for an open mind so that the Lord may speak to you and deliver you from the bondage of the enemy who prowls around the earth looking for weakness so that he can get a hold and spread his poison.

I rebuke the forces of darkness today and all who are sent by the enemy to come against my sister, Tina. May the Lord place a hedge of protection so deep and so wide that the voice of the enemy can no longer be heard! Stamp out and trample under the lies he is spreading. Lord, we know you love Tina as much as anyone you have brought into existence. Bring peace to her spirit and wash your mercy and grace over her thoughts that her healing will be evident. Lord, wrap your loving arms around her, give her wisdom and discernment as she awakens to her new life in you. Your grace is sufficient. Bless her abundantly. You know her heart and her spirit. You know every thought she thinks, her needs and desires, her wants and her wishes. She needs you Lord. Be with her today and show her the truth that the enemy has been hiding from her. Let the warriors gather around her and may she draw strrength knowing that we care about her. We stand with her today and shout GLORY! May you rein in her heart today and forever. Amen and amen.

 

[bluebirds38]

DEAR LORD,I PRAY THAT YOU DELIVER TINA FROM THE LIES, DECIEVE, AND FROM ALL MANER OF ATTACKS THAT SATAN IS DOING TO HER, I PRAY THAT YOU BRING HER WISDOM AND GUIDENCE TO HER, HELP HER TO SEE THE LIGHT OF SALVATION, I PRAY THAT YOU GIVE HER THE STRENGTH SHE NEEDS TO MOVE FORWARD IN LIFE, I PRAY THAT YOU RESTORE HER ONE HUNDRED FOLD, I PRAY THAT YOU HEAL HER AND SOFTEN HER PARNETS HEART AND GUIDE THEM TO SALVATION, I PRAY THAT YOU BRING PEACE TO HER AND FILL HER WITH YOUR PRESENCE, I PRAY THAT IF SHE ATTEMPT SUCIDE LIKE SHE SAYS, I PRAY THAT IT DOESN'T WORK,I PRAY THAT YOU RESTORE HER HEALTH AND RELATIONSHIP WITH HER FAMILY TEN FOLD, I PRAY THAT SHE REACHS OUT TO SOMEONE. IN JESUS NAME AMEN