Let me explain the full story:
There's these three discord Roleplay Hubs called Crescent Hub(I was a partner manager on there), RP Hub | Server Advertising, and The Simple Roleplay Hub. Crescent Hub is owned by an owner named Death and he's admin to the other two. Then there's these three other servers owned by yourfriendsteven. One is Who Are You Gonna Call? (Ghostbusters themed), Legends & Monsters(I kinda forgot the name and just guessing), and DC Multiverse. (DC themed). At first, everything was great. But then long story short, I introduced myself as a 17 year old on my King account but my role said I was 18 which I wasn't aware of it until Death DM me about it. I explained that it was a misclick but instead of being understanding, he banned me from all three hubs (not including yourfriendsteven's servers) refuse to unban me until I have proof I was 17.
I got proof and he unbanned me from his Crescent Hub. I got denied from the others so l decided to send another letter to Death which led him to ban me again saying that I didn't misclick(but I did on accident) and that I appeal on my alt(while it's true I did appeal twice on my alt by accident, I didn't do it on purpose and wasn't in the best mood when I did). The point is I never meant to lie on accident. I didn't do anything wrong and all I did was a misclick an age role and now I'm blacklisted on RP Hub | Server Advertising and hated, banned again and blocked by Death and and the owners of the other RP hubs(Crescent Hub, RP Hub | Server Advertising, and The Simple Roleplay Hub) plus three servers (by yourfriendsteven). I just can't catch a break without being banned from any servers and everytime I do, its always a misunderstanding and then people will hate me making me feel guilty of it all. I want to get back in the RP Hubs and I want to see a miracle happen but I am losing hope once more and I have no confidence in it. I want to apologize and talk it out with everyone and be forgiven and I want to be happy in there again.
I want to time travel back to a few days ago where I was still in the servers where I didn't make an introduction of myself. I want everything back to the way it was a few days ago. I tried being happy but through my fake smiles, my heart is shattered into a million pieces being accused and hurt. I don't have a real feeling of happiness as of now and I forgot what that feels like. A dark cloud is above me and I can't escape it. The only way to do so is to be back into those Discord RP Hubs and sort this out.
I pray for a second chance and I pray for it to happen soon. I pray for good luck and unexpected miracles. I pray for be forgiven by those owners and admins as I meant no real harm except for a simple misunderstanding. I'll keep praying for those who hurt me and pray that a miraculous miracle will shower upon us all and that we all may forgive each other and give each other a second chance to rebuild our relationships with truth and justice.
I said this: "Death, I hope this message finds you well. I've noticed that my appeals have been denied on Simple Roleplay Hub and DC Multiverse, and I'm still awaiting a response from RP Hub Server Advertising. Additionally, I've been banned/kicked from yourfriendsteven's servers. I understand that concerns about my age may have led to these decisions. However, I'd like to assure you that I'm 17 years old and have been having a productive conversation with you. I'd be grateful if you could kindly inform the owners of these servers about my age and our conversation. I have genuine interest in rejoining the roleplays on these servers, particularly the ones where I've established connections and storylines. I understand the importance of community guidelines and promise to respectfully abide by them. Your support in this matter would mean a lot to me, and I'd greatly appreciate your help in getting back to the roleplays that I enjoy and value."
Death replied with this: "I did not deal with any of your appeals. Your appeal in Simple RP Hub was denied by another admin after reading through all information presented. Steve, as owner, made his own decision about your case and appeal on his own, as well. For RPH, your appeal was further denied and blacklisted by another owner after reviewing all information once again. For Crescent, I am going to follow suit once more and do likewise. Why? After discussions with other staff from various servers, I realized that I cannot let my misplaced sympathy put others at risk. You lied about your age, plain and simple. There was no misclick. Furthermore, you often told people a range from 17-18 which encompasses two fields of different legalities. Lastly, you alluded towards age-playing in order to get around a block from a user for whatever reason which is extremely suspicious. In terms of notifying other staff about our conversation, they have been informed since the moment we spoke. They are privy to every message sent between us (although not identifying information). They made that decision based on everything said. I am further suspicious of the fact that you appealed bans with your alt account and DMed me from it as well, as if we weren't already having a conversation. In general, I think you should take this as a lesson on how dangerous it is to lie about your age or misrepresent yourself online. I hope you do not pursue someone who has blocked you further either. Perhaps an appeal can be considered further in the future, but not for now."
And if I'm being completely honest. I never lied about my age. I simply misclicked the roles on RP Hub Server Advertising and did an intro about myself in the honest way and further more, I was roleplaying with ppl around my age. I did appeal with my alt account but that was simply an accident as I wasn't really paying attention to it all.
But now Death blocked me and banned me again from his server (Crescent Hub) and I'm feeling guilty of it all even though everyone says it's not my fault. It's just because of that stupid misunderstanding misclicked age role and they don't even want to try and hear it. I just wish there's a way for them to realize that especially Death and the other Hub and server owners. I wish for all of them to give me another chance to prove myself that I can do better.
I wish to be unbanned from every discord server I've been banned from including Crescent Hub, The Simple Roleplay Hub, RP Hub | Server Advertising, Yourfriendsteven's servers, Thea's server, and Ever Rat's server and be granted a second chance to rejoin again.
I wish to be unblocked by everyone's DM who blocked me including yourfriendsteven, Ever Rat, Death, and Happy and be given a second chance to talk and be forgiven. I wish to be off the blacklist of RPH Advertising and be a Partner Manager again in Crescent Hub as well as an admin in yourfriendsteven's discord servers.
Below are some screenshots from the discord servers. I posted some verses of the Bible quotes on there so it's kinda hard to read but there's the OG pics and the bible quotes pics
Altogether here's the prayer from Feb 3-Feb 15 from my personal dairy:
I've never felt so miserable
especially when I knew I didn't do anything wrong only misunderstandings. All I did was done a simple misclick of the age role, did a terrible job talking to Death, and accidentally appealing twice on on my alt account. Maybe I also should've never lie to Mane that I was 18 yr old just to satisfy my wants. That was something I should've just let go instead of being so obsessed with. I'm so sorry for everything, Heavenly Father.
If You can, please allow the Holy Spirit into the hearts of those who hates and blocked me including Death, Happy, Ever Rat, Mane, Miss Divvi, Rome, and Thea to unblock and talk to me first in Jesus's name. I want to be unban from all servers including Crescent Hub(be a partner manger again), The Simple Roleplay, RP Hub | Server Advertising(be off the blacklist), yourfriendsteven's servers(be an admin and partner manger again), Thea's server, Ever Rat's server and any other servers I've been ban from in Jesus's name.
I just want things to change for me and I want to see a miracle happen for real like how things worked for Rome and Candian, I want it to happen with Death & his staff members and the other RP Hub and server owners & staffs in Jesus's name.
I want to hear the good news from Realsayo hearing that "hey Kitty! Death finally talking to you again! Here's what he said!" I want to see it happen, God. I really do and You are the ONLY one who can give me that. No magic or spells can. Only by the power of the Holy Spirit in the mighty name of Jesus's Christ, Your Son, Heavenly Father, You can grant me what I desire. Give me that second chance and let me prove that I changed. I want to be unban from all the servers I've been ban from & unblock by everyone who blocked me and give me a second chance to talk & explain. I want everyone I've been talking to be more active & have the desire to talk to me again.
I know it's a lot to ask and not necessarily and You probably think it's silly but it's what I want to see happen. I truly do. I want that second chance to rejoin those servers and talk to everyone again. Lord, forgive those who hurt me as they didn't know about the misunderstooding that really happen. They only judge by what they saw & heard from others not by an explanation from me the one who knows the truth.
I ask for a second chance to be unban & rejoin all the servers I've been ban from and unblock from everyone who blocked me and be off the RPH Server Advertising blacklist once and for all because I want that second chance to prove myself I've grown and can keep promises I make. All I need is to be given that chance I desire to have. It's one of many that'll make me feel happier and better. It'll also help me out stopping me with being obsessed with finding spells. I know You are listening & know You are watching.
I promise You that I'll keep my promise to always be honest with everyone around me except maybe for Mane because I don't think I want to see what happens with them. But with everyone else, definitely for sure. Just please give me that chance. Give me that miraculous miracle and bless those who hurt me with the Holy Spirit and find room in their hearts to be kind and sincere. I really want to see it happen and it's all I could think of.
Just like how You've done with Rome and Candian, let it happen to these people including Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Ever Rat, Mane, Miss Divvi, and Thea allowing them to hear and see the truth about what really happened because like Jesus said in the Bible.. "The truth will set you free." So I ask You for them to listen and allow me to explain the truth so that it'll make me feel free and it'll let them know that what happened is a misunderstanding.
It's literally all I can think of. Day and Night or whether I'm eating, playing with friends..
I can never stop thinking of this but if it's by Your will and miracle, Father, answer my prayer and my heart's desire so I shall stop thinking or worry about this. Please give me that chance so I can prove myself I've changed.
I don't want to sound like I'm babbling or nagging but it's what I'm feeling & thinking. I really want that second chance with them like how I got a second chance with Rome & Candian. Please let it happen and let Realsayo bring that good news to me. It's all I honestly want to happen. I want to see and feel it happen. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen
Oh Lord, I know You want what is best for me and I know Your love is greater that I could ever imagine. I know You want me down a different path but all I can think of is this. Just give me that chance I desire day and night to be answered. I want to see it happen like how it did with Rome and Candian. It really felt amazing when it happened with them so please let it happen with Death and the other servers that ban me and blacklisted me to please unban me and take me off the Blacklist.
I feel it's so close yet so far away at the same time. I desire wholeheartedly for it to happen. It's all I want to see happen on Discord. It would help relief me.
At least let me know if I'm getting closer to getting what I want, God. You said in the bible that if we ask anything in Jesus's name, we'll get exactly what we wish for. Well I ask for help to be unban from all the discord servers I've been ban from and unblocked from everyone who blocked me.. can You please help me answer what I ask for? I just want to be happy and for that to happen, I want to get what I ask for. My heart's broken into pieces and I want to hid in a dark closet wishing to travel back in time. I'm just being honest talking to You like we are close friends because You are my friend.
All I want is to be unban from all the servers I've been ban from and unblock from all the people who blocked me. I want to talk to them and explain what really happened and that what I've done is just a big misunderstanding then they'll understand and give me a second chance to rejoin their servers. I want to see that happen so badly and I've been praying day and night for it to happen.
If I didn't want it so badly then I won't be praying so hard for it but I want it very badly and that's why I'm asking. I want to see it happen and I want it now. I know that it'll take time and patients but I want to see at least a sign that it's on the way of being answered. I want to talk to Death, Happy, Giggles, The Simple Roleplay Hub owner, andyourfriendsteven, Thea, Ever Rat, Mane, Miss Divvi, & Rome. I want to tell my side of the story & see them understand I'm not a scammer or replacer, or liar, whatever I did to Ever Rat. At least grant me the wish to talk to them and understanding me. Invite the Holy Spirit into their hearts & let them come to me in Jesus's name so we may understand each other better to repair our relationship. Give them Your love & kindness. If You can change the heart of Saul when he was evil then You can definitely do the same with Death, Happy, Giggles, The Simple Roleplay Hub owner, andyourfriendsteven, Thea, Ever Rat, Mane, Miss Divvi, & Rome.
Maybe I am getting closer or maybe I'm not.. either way, I want to have it. Lord Jesus, I pray for those who hates & accuse me of lying & harassing to see the truth through Your name of love & kindness. The only thing they've done wrong is hurting & breaking my heart. I ask in Jesus for forgiveness & second chance to repair our relationships.
I pray heavily & deeply for Death, Happy, Ever Rat, Mane, andyourfriendsteven, Rome, Miss Divvi, Thea, Mane, etc and all of their staff members & friends to see the truth about me and the honest fact I wasn't lying to any of them in Jesus's name. I pray they'll have the Holy Spirit in their hearts to remove me off the blacklist and unban me from their servers including Crescent Hub, RP Hub | Server Advertising, The Simple Roleplay Hub, Ever Rat's server, Thea's server, andyourfriendsteven's servers, any other servers I've been ban from, etc, and give me another chance to rejoin, become a partner manger again, & an admin again in Jesus's name.
Heavenly Father, You know it would be a miracle if it did actually happen. I would once again be the happi girl on the planet just like when Candian & Rome gave me a second chance, I felt so happy. If this happens again and Realsayo came bearing with wondering news telling me that Death, Happy, andyourfriendsteven,Ever Rat, Miss Divvi, Thea, & Mane all wants to talk to me ready to listen & understand my side of the story I'll be happy with absolutely no faking smiling or sadness hidden in my heart in Jesus's name, Amen.
I want that good feeling of having a second chance again like I always do. I kept my promise with Candian & Rome didn't I? I can keep my promise with Death, Happy, andyourfriendsteven,Ever Rat, Miss Divvi, Thea, and Mane 100% in Jesus's name.
No magic spells or anything could compare to Your power of love & kindness and that's why I'm relying on You to answer my prayer getting those discord people to unblock DMs/unban from their servers and talk to me.
I want to continue to talk about what happened and how I want to fix it. I know You are just trying to protect me from those who hurt me by not answering the way I want it or maybe not yet at least.. But whether not yet or not gonna happen, I WANT it to happen and I WANT that second chance to rejoin those discord hubs and servers again and I WANT to be unban from all the servers who ban & blacklisted me and unblock from everyone who blocked me in JESUS'S NAME.
I PRAY & WANT that wholeheartedly and it's what I want in JESUS'S NAME. It's what my heart wants and it would be an incredible miracle if it does happen. I PRAY & WANT Realsayo to message me with news that Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven and anyone else I was apart of helping out but got banned to message me saying they'll all give me a second chance to rejoin their servers and help be their partner mangers and admin again in JESUS'S NAME.
I also PRAY & WANT Ever Rat, Thea, Mane, Miss Divvi, and Rome to also Dm in JESUS'S NAME.
Heavenly Father, I want to thank You for always forgiving my sins no matter what I've done. Thank You for always giving me another chance another day to try again to do better. Right now, I pray with my heart for Your forgiveness and blessings to shift into the hearts of those who hates me. I pray they are given a second chance from You to be kind and unban me from their servers as well as be off the blacklist and give me a second chance to join again.
Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Ever Rat, Thea, Miss Divvi, Rome, all of their staff members and anyone else who hates/blocked me, I pray for them all and that the Holy Spirit in Jesus's name may shine through their hearts & mind to feel & see the truth of what really happened.
Oh Father Lord, bring the good news to me and let Your miracle of love and second chance be given to all of us. Forgive our sins like You always do.
You are slow to anger and quick to forgive so I ask You in Jesus's name to be unban from Crescent Hub(be a partner manger again) , The Simple Roleplay Hub, RP Hub | Server Advertising(be off their blacklist), yourfriendsteven's servers(be a partner manger and admin again), Thea's server, Ever Rat's server, and any other servers I've been ban from.
I also ask and pray for Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, and their staff members, Ever Rat, Mane, Miss Divvi, Thea, Rome, and anyone else who blocked me to all have the Holy Spirit in their hearts to unblock and DM me first this time in Jesus's name.
Oh God, You know it would deeply mean so much to me if it could happen. It would be a miracle created by You and Your love for us. So I ask to let it happen please. In Jesus's name, Amen
I rarely felt any happiness these few months just because of what happened and all I am asking for is for a miracle. A miracle that gets Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Ever Rat, Miss Divvi, Mane, Thea, and Rome to unblock me and talk to me. A miracle to be unban from all the RP Hubs and off the blacklist and be granted a second chance to rejoin again. It's the only thing I want to see happening automatically on its own from You, Heavenly Father.
My heart hurts and burns in pain no matter how HARD I try to shake it off. I really want to see my heart's desire come true. Give me that chance to prove myself and to let them seek the truth about what I said and what happened. It's all I think about and always on my mind no matter what. It's like a boomerang that always comes back. All I want is a miracle for this to happen and I would never ask for anything else that's unnecessary ever again unless it's reasonable.
Heavenly Father, I want to see Realsayo message me saying "Hey Kitty, It seems that Two on Toothless account: Thea, Miss Divvi, and Three on King account: Mane, Ever Rat, and Death messaged you. Death says 'So me and the other server staff members have talked and decided to give you another chance to be off the blacklist and unban from the servers but this is the only second chance you are getting and if we see you mess up or lie again, it's a permanent ban. Is that clear?'
Ever Rat says 'Sorry for ignoring you for some long but yes I'm still indeed interested in roleplaying and answering the questions from your friends(Then they go on explaining why they blocked/ban Kitty and Toothless from their server and DMs).'
Mane says 'I'm finally back and ready to roleplay again. Work held me at my feet but now I'm back(and then goes on from there).'
Thea says 'Hey there. It seems that I didn't get the chance to accept your friend request but now since I do, what's up?'
Miss Divvi says 'Hey Kitty, after a while of going off, I decided to forgive you for what happened. I realized that it could possibly be a mistake of what happened and I was stress(maybe) so sorry for the drama that was caused. Do you still want to be friends?' How should I respond to them all?"
I'll be like "Thank Death for the second chance and I promise to not mess up again. For Mane & Ever Rat, appreciate the explanation from Ever Rat and get ready to be back into the roleplays with both. For Thea, explain what I've done is an accident and I didn't mean to make her feel threatened if she felt that way. For Miss Divvi, forgive her & accept the friendship." Then Realsayo will be like: "Alright I'll do just that." Then all other 1x1 RPs are more active.
This is the miracle I'm praying my heart out, Lord & I want it to happen in Jesus's name, Amen.
Nothing new or changed. Just another boring day with heart as empty as ever. It's painful to carry all this weight on myself and I tried to let it go by thinking of something else but the pain is still there. It's like somebody shot a big hole in my heart leaving me to bleed.
All I want is to be unban from all discord servers I've been ban from including Crescent Hub(and be a Partner Manger again) , RP Hub | Server Advertising(off the blacklist on all my accounts), The Simple Roleplay, yourfriendsteven's servers(be a partner manger & admin again), Thea's server, Ever Rat's server, etc, and unblock from every of those server owners including Ever Rat, Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Thea, Miss Divvi, Rome, etc, and I dearly pray in Jesus's name for them all to have the Holy Spirit of kindness & love to give me a chance to explain my side of the story and to rejoin again.
I want them to know I'm trying my best to work out and not make any dumb mistakes to be misunderstood again.
Feb 15:
It would be a literal miracle if it could happen. I would love to see Death finally DM me first like how Rome's admin did or how Canadian did. I'm praying for a miracle, Lord and I'm fully relying on You to help make it happen.
Please help me, Lord, help me answer and grant an answer to my prayer like You always have been doing. In Jesus's name, I pray, Amen.
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