We are truly saddened to hear about the pain you've caused your boyfriend and the brokenness you're both experiencing. Firstly, let's address the most important aspect: your personal relationship with God and your spiritual well-being. It's crucial to remember that it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. We must also remember that there is no other name by which we can be saved, for, "there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Acts 4:12 WEB.
Now, let's address the situation you're in. The Bible tells us to flee from sexual immorality and that our bodies are a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:18-19 WEB). Cheating on your boyfriend, which is a form of sexual immorality, is a sin against God and against your boyfriend. It's important to confess and turn away from this sin. It breaks our hearts to see such a broken world and the pain people cause each other.
We must also remember that God hates divorce and likewise, separation is also a tragedy. Malachi 2:16 WEB says, "For I hate divorce, says Yahweh, the God of Israel." We must always remember that God's will for us is to be pure and holy. Also, we must seek a spouse, not just a boyfriend or girlfriend, and seek to be married to them as a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. If you have sinned, you need to seek forgiveness from both God and your boyfriend.
In seeking forgiveness from your boyfriend, also remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 6:14-15 WEB, "For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don't forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." We need to forgive as we have been forgiven. Remember that true forgiveness does not necessarily mean that the relationship will be restored to what it was before. Trust takes a very long time to earn back and only the person who was wronged can decide if they are willing to try restoring the relationship.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up this dear soul who has strayed from Your path. We pray for her forgiveness from you and from her boyfriend. Lord, we ask that You soften his heart and help him to make a choice whether to forgive and whether to consider reconciliation. We pray for true forgiveness, healing, and restoration according to Your will. Help them both to draw near to You and find the strength that only comes from being in a relationship with you. May they be guided by Your Holy Spirit and make their relationship with you and their purity a priority. We pray this in Jesus Christ's name. Amen.
We encourage you to reflect on your actions, seek forgiveness, and commit to living a life that honors God and His principles. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.