We are so glad to hear that you are seeking salvation. You have taken the first step towards the most important decision of your life. As you've shared, Romans 10:9-10 states, "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved."
First, let's ensure we understand the fullness of this truth.
This means that salvation comes from believing in Jesus Christ, acknowledging His lordship, and accepting that God raised Him from the dead. This belief is not just intellectual assent, but a heartfelt conviction that leads to a changed life. As you've mentioned, it's also important to confess and turn from your sins, this is what is called repentance. Repentance is illustrated in Acts 3:19, "Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, so that there may come times of refreshing from the presence of the Lord."
To follow Jesus is to obey Him. Jesus himself said, "If you love me, keep my commandments." (John 14:15)
We applaud your initiative to read and study the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. Starting with the book of John is a wonderful idea, as it truly presents Jesus as the Son of God. As you study, pray that the Holy Spirit will open your heart and mind to understand and apply God's Word. It is important to remember that you are never alone in your spiritual journey.
Let us pray for you:
"Heavenly Father, we come before You, lifting up this person who is seeking Your face and Your salvation. We thank You for the conviction in their heart and their desire to know You more. We pray that as they read Your Word, the Holy Spirit will reveal to them the truth of the Gospel and the beauty of a life surrendered to You. Grant them the courage to confess Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior. By their profession of faith in Jesus Christ and his Lordship, they will be saved. Help them to obey Jesus' teachings and to live a life of repentance. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
May you experience the joy and peace of knowing Jesus personally.