Nikola Blazic
Humble Prayer Partner
I completely understand you, ###, I have had a very hard year, with a lot of bad spirits. I have so many blasphemous thoughts and have been unstable in my thinking. I have lost hope numerous times, disrespected the holy father, and have cried so much. At times, I couldn't even cry because my thoughts were evil. I thought I could die any moment and go to hell, and I have a heart issue and some parasites in my head, so my days are numbered. But every day I pray hard, and things are getting better. I hope Jesus will provide my visions and good dreams to comfort me.
It is good that you are coming to God. May he cleanse you from all demons, unrighteousness, and carnal mind. May he give you the mind of Christ, that you overcome evil thinking. I pray to our heavenly father for the holy spirit to be strong in you and to convict you of all your sins. Feeling convicted is a good thing because it means that God has not left you. Those feelings, if you don't neglect them, will bring you to perfection, which you must strive to become. Sing to our heavenly father, sing your prayers every day, and don't give up. Shake off every evil thought from your mind and crave an honorable and pure mind.
Many hopeless days when evil thoughts and evil thinking entered into me, I felt so hopeless, like God had left me or like it would be impossible for me to overcome those spirits. It felt as if every day I fought not to deny Jesus accidentally and not to curse him, but frequently I would curse him and I have denied him a couple of times. In my mind, I have been having much evil thoughts against him, and something always would drive me into attacking him and disrespecting him. I see that the devil is strong in me, waiting for every opportunity to take my hope away. I even hear a voice in me telling me I have blasphemed the holy ghost or that I cannot be forgiven, but against all odds, I am fighting and seeking hope, as there is no purpose for me if I would give up. My double-minded heart must cease to be double-minded very soon and be united with Jesus. Because I always doubt my thoughts, and by doubting, they always become those which I feared to have. So Jesus said, "don't fear," because fear leads us to sin. It is a mystery, but there is a wrong and right kind of fear that I learned. When I had the wrong kind of fear of God, I would always get into sinful thoughts, and the right kind would protect me from such sins.
So, heavenly father, please allow us, after a very hopeless fight, to find hope and forgiveness of our sins and build our faith to be strong, unshakeable, and impenetrable so we would die for Jesus and his gospel of truth, and our thoughts be cleansed by your word and holy spirit. In Jesus's name, I pray, Amen.
It is good that you are coming to God. May he cleanse you from all demons, unrighteousness, and carnal mind. May he give you the mind of Christ, that you overcome evil thinking. I pray to our heavenly father for the holy spirit to be strong in you and to convict you of all your sins. Feeling convicted is a good thing because it means that God has not left you. Those feelings, if you don't neglect them, will bring you to perfection, which you must strive to become. Sing to our heavenly father, sing your prayers every day, and don't give up. Shake off every evil thought from your mind and crave an honorable and pure mind.
Many hopeless days when evil thoughts and evil thinking entered into me, I felt so hopeless, like God had left me or like it would be impossible for me to overcome those spirits. It felt as if every day I fought not to deny Jesus accidentally and not to curse him, but frequently I would curse him and I have denied him a couple of times. In my mind, I have been having much evil thoughts against him, and something always would drive me into attacking him and disrespecting him. I see that the devil is strong in me, waiting for every opportunity to take my hope away. I even hear a voice in me telling me I have blasphemed the holy ghost or that I cannot be forgiven, but against all odds, I am fighting and seeking hope, as there is no purpose for me if I would give up. My double-minded heart must cease to be double-minded very soon and be united with Jesus. Because I always doubt my thoughts, and by doubting, they always become those which I feared to have. So Jesus said, "don't fear," because fear leads us to sin. It is a mystery, but there is a wrong and right kind of fear that I learned. When I had the wrong kind of fear of God, I would always get into sinful thoughts, and the right kind would protect me from such sins.
So, heavenly father, please allow us, after a very hopeless fight, to find hope and forgiveness of our sins and build our faith to be strong, unshakeable, and impenetrable so we would die for Jesus and his gospel of truth, and our thoughts be cleansed by your word and holy spirit. In Jesus's name, I pray, Amen.
