Don't Let Me Lose My Mind...not now God

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

You do realize that we are to die to ourselves, right? If you follow what happened to me, stop thinking about yourself all together from Matthew 6. Who cares what day of the week this is anyway? We have incredible promises from God/Jesus to think on and meditate on!

another girl i help was brutally raped.

there are sister's in Christ who come to me
after some of the most in-humane of traumatic experiences....

many are suicidal....many need great inner healing
and many are in living situations that are beyond despicable....

i carry a heavy cross sometimes James

BEAR YE ONE ANOHER BURDENS
AND SO FULFILL THE LAW OF CHRIST

but it is not easy...for me...

 

[Brother James]

i know that you meant well but this did not help me James...

i appreciate that you tried
but there are still many people who look to me for much assistance
help guidance intercession and personal private prayer...
their needs are GREAT and i do not take what they go thru lightly..
and when i feel like i am losing my mind...i am not much good to them unfortunately...never mind myself...

it is a very sobering and even frightening thought to feel like
i am going over an edge here....truly....
and i do not take it lightly...not at all....

i try to keep a sense of humor about everything
including when i post a request for prayer sometimes
despite the very critical things that i am facing personally...

if i go under........those who depend on me will suffer too...
it would not be good either to those who look to me for leadership
and counsel and help themselves....

i know that you meant well
i truly do.

maybe this

from the book of Proverbs

a fit word spoken in due season is like apples of Gold in a silver basket.

i understand the principle of dying to self
that was spoken to me in a dream by The Lord when i was 16 years old James.....

maybe
just keep encouraging me.......there is much i have not posted prayer for myself about.....
that is in my humble estimation.....soo much better left unsaid for now.

there are ONLY certain key private individuals who know
and we are doing our ut-most best to up-hold each other up right now....
despite demonstrative hardship's in our lives.....
but it is not easy
no....not at all

i also know the promises of God
extremely well
and yes....
they are wonderful
but have they have yet to come to fruition for some of us.

And only The Lord Himself truly knows why that is.




thank-you again james soo much....x.o.x.o.x..

I can leave you to be if that is what you desire but it is so completely freeing to give ones self up to Jesus and let Him be alone what we need. Our lives are not ours at all my friend so why do we need to suffer at all?

 

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

You do realize that we are to die to ourselves, right? If you follow what happened to me, stop thinking about yourself all together from Matthew 6. Who cares what day of the week this is anyway? We have incredible promises from God/Jesus to think on and meditate on!

therefore....i better know what day of week it is....
among many other things.....James.....

so though i kept a sense of humor
to that prayer post
the serious implications for me are very very great indeed....

and not to be taken lightly...........no how.......no way.

 

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

I can leave you to be if that is what you desire but it is so completely freeing to give ones self up to Jesus and let Him be alone what we need. Our lives are not ours at all my friend so why do we need to suffer at all?

that is the eternal question

why do we suffer ?

but we most surely do James......many of us still do.

and we cry out to God ............WHY ?

 

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

I can leave you to be if that is what you desire but it is so completely freeing to give ones self up to Jesus and let Him be alone what we need. Our lives are not ours at all my friend so why do we need to suffer at all?

what might open our eye's is Mother Theresa's Life
and her ministry

at her lowest of lowest....she questioned the very existence of God
for the suffering that she saw.....in India....it was soo excruciating...

perhaps read some books on her...or watch the movie of her life.

very few could have walked in her shoe's......

very few

except...........only those called By God....Himself

 

[Brother James]

that is the eternal question

why do we suffer ?

but we most surely do James......many of us still do.

and we cry out to God ............WHY ?

Philippians 4:19

I believe it is because we don't depend upon the Words of God/Jesus. My God, my Jesus does supply according to all my needs but I do His Instructions like take no thought for your life in Matthew 6. That doesn't mean to stop thinking all together but it does mean to stop thinking about myself. I only try to think about myself the way that Jesus thinks about me. Whenever I think about myself I am in pain, excruciating pain but when I open my mouth and speak the Words of God/Jesus, I know that He is making me the Righteousness of God in Christ so I speak I am the Righteousness of God in Christ. No weapon formed against me can prosper in Jesus! No sickness is allowed in, nor near me in Jesus! I am at Peace in Jesus! The very beasts of the field are at peace with me in and through Jesus! These are all statements from God/Jesus found in scripture in the which I claim through Jesus as well.

 

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

Philippians 4:19

I believe it is because we don't depend upon the Words of God/Jesus. My God, my Jesus does supply according to all my needs but I do His Instructions like take no thought for your life in Matthew 6. That doesn't mean to stop thinking all together but it does mean to stop thinking about myself. I only try to think about myself the way that Jesus thinks about me. Whenever I think about myself I am in pain, excruciating pain but when I open my mouth and speak the Words of God/Jesus, I know that He is making me the Righteousness of God in Christ so I speak I am the Righteousness of God in Christ. No weapon formed against me can prosper in Jesus! No sickness is allowed in, nor near me in Jesus! I am at Peace in Jesus! The very beasts of the field are at peace with me in and through Jesus! These are all statements from God/Jesus found in scripture in the which I claim through Jesus as well.

it might be best to say no more James............................please.

thank-you my friend.

i do understand where you are coming from.

you do not understand where i am coming from

and it is oh-kay

just check out Mother Theresa please.....thank-you James.

 

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

if i also have to leave this soo sweet prayer web site
it will surely kill me....
i have already taken 8 years of much abuse on the last one
and that should have never been
had the staff and whole ministry been doing their job
of protecting their sheep....
it is soo hard--breaking....to have to have gone thru....

but if i have to leave here too.....i also will....

it is appalling to me
of the lack of compassion and understanding this world has...
and even some believer's have too....it is also very very sad.

there are no easy answer's for any of us......
especially not even was there an easy answer for poor Job........
no there was not.....JOB SUFFERED BEYOND WHAT WE CAN IMAGINE...

thank-you to everyone for your prayer's......x.o.x.o.x..........

 

[Roy San]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Feathers Of Angel's Wings]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

thank-you.....x.o.x.o.x.........