GOD woke me up but I am just existing in this world.
Today like most days I'm still hurting from my x husband's ultimate betrayal.
I sometimes question myself as to why GOD wakes me up knowing the pain and heartbreak I've endured for years now.
I've looked to GOD I've prayed and fasted, I've waited patiently but GOD has not responded to my cries.
This morning I had 2 cups of coffee and I took 3 sleep aids. It's only when I sleep that I find peace and I'm not hurting. I don't intend to kill or harm myself in any way but when I'm asleep I feel no pain.
Many say I need to talk with a professional.
GOD is that and more at least that's what I believed.
I'm not sure what to do at this moment.
Lost, hurt, pain, and defeated.

Today like most days I'm still hurting from my x husband's ultimate betrayal.
I sometimes question myself as to why GOD wakes me up knowing the pain and heartbreak I've endured for years now.
I've looked to GOD I've prayed and fasted, I've waited patiently but GOD has not responded to my cries.
This morning I had 2 cups of coffee and I took 3 sleep aids. It's only when I sleep that I find peace and I'm not hurting. I don't intend to kill or harm myself in any way but when I'm asleep I feel no pain.
Many say I need to talk with a professional.
GOD is that and more at least that's what I believed.
I'm not sure what to do at this moment.
Lost, hurt, pain, and defeated.


daily, I'm praying this with you. Trust Him. God bless!