My husband's mother Usha at home who is not so well but owns a house in which me (Ramika),my husband (Rohit)and my 12 year old son(Param) stay together wid her in her house...she has high influence on my husband and my son dont even talk to me in a respectful manner rather three of them think its ok if u wud b not there in our lives.They oll are non- believers and my husband n my son even wear evil eye thread in their necks.when m wid them i feel worried and lonely because i feel like m useless and of no value for them ..Though i pray daily to Lord Jesus and bless them.ask God to change me and change their behaviour and heart towards me.My mother in law dont talk good about me with my son and so my son do not treat me nicely and don sit with me and talk but still i pray for her but i feel shattered and broken .My husband earns well and my son goes to missionary christian school but still dont beleive in God .My husband's bussiness partner is female who is moreover like boss over him..Her name is Laxmi Dass.She is christian but neither she prays n nor goes to church.
She is other reason of my fear n insecurity in life ...My husband says she is like elder sister to him but she olso tries to influence him all the time and pretends to dat wat in actual life she is not ..i mean she always talks to my husband wid respect and gracefully and dont do any work in d guest house which they own together infact its my husband who is doin everything because he knows laws also and d property has legal case over it so my husband has to look after everything from hbills to staff payment from building maintenance to its construction each and every requriement and that lady only enjoys the benefits from all of it ..so its like neither at home nor outside in his business i dont find place for myself...He thinks i dont have brain i m nothing as i don own anything not any buliding neither house...i don hv anything to give him anything rather he feels he feeds me and its because of his hard work i m living comfortable life..He says watever comes in his mind ...in a very inappropriate manner...i cry cry n cry in frontof Lord ...According to him i hv everything what more should i ask for ...but Lord i dont hv happy family who laughs together eat together i m lonely inside thats the reason i started drinking wine one year back ...n noe i drink daily. My husband dont knoe about it..but i want to quit plz help save my family my marriage our relations with each other become strong and give us a heart thats full of compassion love care respect towards each other. I wanted to have second baby but he declined ...i wear what he likes and try to talk to him in resfectful way but sometimes i loose it oll...God please make me more tolerant and patience to deal with all these.
I m lost and aimless right now in my life ..plz ask to give me strength and hope and aim
I was a teacher but i left my job because i was not at ease and used to feel restless all the time plz plz help me and pray for me ....i feel jealous and angry towards my mother and my husband's business partner but i ask God to change me daily and make the person he wants me to bevome