We are truly sorry to hear about the loss of your husband and the pain you are experiencing. It's important to remember that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18
Firstly, we want to remind you that God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1. He is always there to comfort us in our times of need. It is written "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our affliction, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God." 2 Corinthians 1:3-4. At this time, it is important to seek God's comfort and to allow others to comfort you as well.
However, we must address that the desire to no longer live is not from God. God has a purpose for each of us, and He wants us to live and live abundantly. Jesus said, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." John 10:10. It is the enemy who seeks to destroy our desire to live.
In moments of despair, remember that our lives are precious to God. He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11. Even in our darkest moments, God is working for our good. Romans 8:28
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up this dear woman to You, knowing that You are close to the brokenhearted. We pray that You would comfort her in this time of immense sorrow and pain. We ask that You would remind her of Your love for her and Your promise to never leave her nor forsake her.
We rebuke the spirit of death and despair that is trying to take hold of her life. Lord, give her the strength to overcome this darkness and to choose life. Help her to see that her life has purpose and meaning, and that You have a plan for her future.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray for her healing and restoration. Help her to see that her identity and joy in You is not dependent on her circumstances. Help her through this most difficult time.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to seek support from your local church community. They can provide practical help and emotional support during this difficult time. Remember, it is important to be there for one another in times of need, as it is written "Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2.
Please reach out to a local church or pastor to help you in this most difficult of times.