Confusing Feeling of Feeling Like I was Meant for Something More...

[Goghysk]

That’s Awesome! I have read and listened to the Bible many times as well. I get on here to share my experiences with Jesus with others but I keep having more experiences. Everywhere I go I share Jesus. People always ask how I am to where I reply I’m Blessed of Jesus which cannot ever change because Jesus can’t lose any of us. A couple days ago I was taking some pictures of my sister’s old house and neighborhood as the leaves are changing. A lady came out of her house to holler at me why are you taking pictures. I had to share Jesus with her and replied because I love Jesus and asked her do you love Jesus. She made me repeat what I said yet her reply was she didn’t know what I was talking about. Then she turned and went back in her house. I believe she did know what I was talking about. The Name Jesus has power and we can all experience everything that we have read about in Scripture just through the Holy Spirit reminding us of His Word. Everything Jesus did, does and will do is for His Glory and our good! Glory to You Lord Jesus!!!

When I'm at work, the only place I get to interact with people, I often ask what Church they attend, or what Church they grew up in. I try to get a feel for how that person might think before I engage with them.

I was physically born into the Missionary Church, because that is where my parents went when I was a kid. After having some problems, my Dad took Mom and I to a Baptist Church. Through Christian TV, and the internet, and some books that I have. I am aware of the Pentecostal and Charismatic way of of thinking and doing things, I am not all in with it. In fact, currently I'm not all in with any form of Churchianity. Because I've been hurt by The Missionary Church, Baptist Church, Non Denominational Church, and even some people from the Pentecostal / Charismatic Church. I want to have a more positive outlook with in my faith, but I feel drawn to the more judgmental elements of the faith. From my current understanding, my problem seems to be with Religious OCD. People who have that, have trouble with the grace side of Christianity.

I wish people would spend more time asking questions. Try to get to know someone, and their struggles before they start trying to minister, or share with them directly.

 

[Brother James]

When I'm at work, the only place I get to interact with people, I often ask what Church they attend, or what Church they grew up in. I try to get a feel for how that person might think before I engage with them.

I was physically born into the Missionary Church, because that is where my parents went when I was a kid. After having some problems, my Dad took Mom and I to a Baptist Church. Through Christian TV, and the internet, and some books that I have. I am aware of the Pentecostal and Charismatic way of of thinking and doing things, I am not all in with it. In fact, currently I'm not all in with any form of Churchianity. Because I've been hurt by The Missionary Church, Baptist Church, Non Denominational Church, and even some people from the Pentecostal / Charismatic Church. I want to have a more positive outlook with in my faith, but I feel drawn to the more judgmental elements of the faith. From my current understanding, my problem seems to be with Religious OCD. People who have that, have trouble with the grace side of Christianity.

I wish people would spend more time asking questions. Try to get to know someone, and their struggles before they start trying to minister, or share with them directly.

We all just need to live our lives unto Jesus. All of our times here are almost over. I had 2 of my boys take me to a hospital just a couple of years ago around 2022. I had a few heart attacks but to be honest I was fading away and I was ok with that. Every doctor and every nurse would ask me how I was in which I would say don’t worry about me I have Jesus. I guess our Lord had different plans for me because now I’m still here.

I think I had 3 heart attacks but I could have had a few extremely minor ones. Each time I was about to have one I would speak to my heart; Peace be still in Jesus, even right in the middle of Trader Joe’s. I didn’t really know what else to say but I have learned that the Name Jesus has more than helped me many times throughout my life. I can say that I’m not afraid to die yet every time I have been right up to the end of it I would always cry out to Jesus and I can assure anyone that He is more than real.

I actually spent quite a few years, maybe 10 or more actually looking for Him. God/Jesus gives all of us clues in His Word and it really is more than Amazing to actually find Him All around all of us and the few times I had Him reveal Himself to me are things I don’t fully share with others because I haven’t desired to add to His Word even though everything He has shown me is in the Bible. It really is amazing the things that are available to us through Jesus. He really did everything for all of us and we can more than rest in Him.

By the way when I was searching for Him, I was also looking for physical treasure which got me in some desert type mountains in Arizona where a mountain lion appeared right above me. I thought I was done for. It is amazing what we can think about in less than a minute maybe even less than a second. I thought how is Jesus going to help me now? I thought about the unnamed profit or prophet who was killed by a lion and the lion and his donkey sat with him afterwards. I thought about us being at peace with the beasts of the field for the Righteous that I read about in Job but I thought I’m not Righteous yet I thought about Jesus giving us His Righteousness so I spoke to the beast and said Jesus says we are at peace with each other. I looked away and then I looked back and it was gone.

We can experience things that are or will creep us out or we can relax and rest in Jesus and just do what it is He desires us to do.

 

[Goghysk]

We all just need to live our lives unto Jesus. All of our times here are almost over. I had 2 of my boys take me to a hospital just a couple of years ago around 2022. I had a few heart attacks but to be honest I was fading away and I was ok with that. Every doctor and every nurse would ask me how I was in which I would say don’t worry about me I have Jesus. I guess our Lord had different plans for me because now I’m still here.

I think I had 3 heart attacks but I could have had a few extremely minor ones. Each time I was about to have one I would speak to my heart; Peace be still in Jesus, even right in the middle of Trader Joe’s. I didn’t really know what else to say but I have learned that the Name Jesus has more than helped me many times throughout my life. I can say that I’m not afraid to die yet every time I have been right up to the end of it I would always cry out to Jesus and I can assure anyone that He is more than real.

I actually spent quite a few years, maybe 10 or more actually looking for Him. God/Jesus gives all of us clues in His Word and it really is more than Amazing to actually find Him All around all of us and the few times I had Him reveal Himself to me are things I don’t fully share with others because I haven’t desired to add to His Word even though everything He has shown me is in the Bible. It really is amazing the things that are available to us through Jesus. He really did everything for all of us and we can more than rest in Him.

By the way when I was searching for Him, I was also looking for physical treasure which got me in some desert type mountains in Arizona where a mountain lion appeared right above me. I thought I was done for. It is amazing what we can think about in less than a minute maybe even less than a second. I thought how is Jesus going to help me now? I thought about the unnamed profit or prophet who was killed by a lion and the lion and his donkey sat with him afterwards. I thought about us being at peace with the beasts of the field for the Righteous that I read about in Job but I thought I’m not Righteous yet I thought about Jesus giving us His Righteousness so I spoke to the beast and said Jesus says we are at peace with each other. I looked away and then I looked back and it was gone.

We can experience things that are or will creep us out or we can relax and rest in Jesus and just do what it is He desires us to do.

You have a very interesting story. My Dad recently had to have heart surgery on his one heart valve. He's been gradually getting better.

I don't know what Jesus wants me to do. That is why I posted this prayer request. I don't have any good Christian friends in real life. I haven't been to Church since 2021. I haven't been involved in Church since 2001. I keep getting a strong feeling that sometime soon I should be getting my Church story posted. It needs some work done to it. But I think I will work on it as I post it.

 

[Brother James]

I’m glad your dad’s doing well. Just live your life as if you are working for only Jesus, try not to worry or think about your life just keep sharing Jesus with anyone you can, your way.

 

[Brother in Christ (JC)]

When I'm at work, the only place I get to interact with people, I often ask what Church they attend, or what Church they grew up in. I try to get a feel for how that person might think before I engage with them.

I was physically born into the Missionary Church, because that is where my parents went when I was a kid. After having some problems, my Dad took Mom and I to a Baptist Church. Through Christian TV, and the internet, and some books that I have. I am aware of the Pentecostal and Charismatic way of of thinking and doing things, I am not all in with it. In fact, currently I'm not all in with any form of Churchianity. Because I've been hurt by The Missionary Church, Baptist Church, Non Denominational Church, and even some people from the Pentecostal / Charismatic Church. I want to have a more positive outlook with in my faith, but I feel drawn to the more judgmental elements of the faith. From my current understanding, my problem seems to be with Religious OCD. People who have that, have trouble with the grace side of Christianity.

I wish people would spend more time asking questions. Try to get to know someone, and their struggles before they start trying to minister, or share with them directly.

James 2:8​

If you really fulfill the royal law according to the Scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you are doing well.

John 13:34-35​

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”

I don't obsess with religion. Any kind of relationship requires sincerity and not religiosity. Love is key.
May our Heavenly Father continue to guide you, bless you, and love you, in the mighty name of Jesus I pray, amen.

 

[Goghysk]

I’m glad your dad’s doing well. Just live your life as if you are working for only Jesus, try not to worry or think about your life just keep sharing Jesus with anyone you can, your way.

I live in almost isolation. My job hours are 2:00pm - 10:30pm. The only people I'm around already claim to be Christians. And they really don't care about me. Because I'm just a janitor.

 

[Brother James]

I have been a janitor but I didn’t really see myself as a janitor, maybe more like a custodian but we can think more positive about ourselves and to be honest most people don’t think much about anything other then themselves even if they think they are Christians. We can all concentrate more on what Jesus says about us and He instructs us to take no thought for our lives.

 

[usha rani]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Goghysk]

I have been a janitor but I didn’t really see myself as a janitor, maybe more like a custodian but we can think more positive about ourselves and to be honest most people don’t think much about anything other then themselves even if they think they are Christians. We can all concentrate more on what Jesus says about us and He instructs us to take no thought for our lives.

I have looked for other Custodians online. We are hard to find!

 

[Rasiney]

Confusing Feeling of Feeling Like I was Meant for Something More... As I've stated in my older prayer requests, I'm a 2nd shift janitor for a school. In my short life story prayer thread, I try to explain the steps my life took that got me to where I am at today. But something inside of me always feels like I was meant for something more than this. It is a very confusing feeling because my number one limitation is my learning disability. My second limitation is my high blood pressure. My Third limitation is my IBS problems. Early 2025 my doctor has me scheduled for colonoscopy to check on somethings, and also to maybe figure out why I've had diarrhea for the past three years. By the way I have always had IBS my whole life, and for that reason alone I never liked to travel, cause I couldn't trust my stomach to behave. Other than that, I would love to travel around and see new places. My learning disability is another reason why I am scared to travel. It has always been a hard thing for me overcome. When I was in school, I got through it with brute force. Just forcing myself really hard to do what I needed to do. It was a very stressful time. Now days I try to keep my stress levels under control. I don't want to go through another breakdown like I did in 2000 something. I've always been worried that God called me to do something with ministry, and that my reaction was "I have a learning disability, and so many other problems, I can't possibly be hearing this right" and then just moved onto the next thing. You see people who have OCD or even a Learning Disability will often have a voice in their telling them stuff that isn't all that good. It is your own intrusive thoughts, and they get mixed with everything else your thinking and feeling. I got diagnosed with OCD too. It is understandable why I have OCD. When you have a learning disability, it makes most things in life a little harder. You look for ways compensate for it. If you tend to over look things, then you will get into a habit of double checking things. And if your tired enough, you might get into a loop of double, and triple, and so on, just to calm your emotions. That is what happens to me at night at work. I guess, what I'm asking for is prayer. I'm asking that you would pray that God would give me a clear direction on my life. Maybe lead me in the right way to deal with the issues I listed above. Above all I want to feel the peace of Jesus in my life. So much that no matter what happens, good or bad, I know He's with Him through it all. I want to know that whatever I do, that I'm in His will for doing it.

I have prayed that you may be enlightened. As a servant of God, I encourage you to learn to cook so you prepare your food from scratch with healthy ingredients. The IBS is most likely linked to eating of processed foods. We live within the system of the Anti-Christ. To protect yourself, you must keep learning new things despite a learning disability. Recipes online, cooking videos online. Start with simple things and work your way up. You want to avoid GMO (genetically-engineered or modified) foods. Eat lots of fresh or frozen fruits and vegetables and whole grains like oatmeal without additives. Do not eat processed breakfast cereals. Choose bread very carefully. Read ingredient labels. Avoid unnecessary but harmful food additives. Whip or churn your own butter. Vitamins and your health are through your diet and not through pills. May God bless you and lead you to health and happiness as you discover your destiny as a disciple of Christ.