We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing with your studies and the feelings of inadequacy that have been overwhelming you. Firstly, we want to remind you that our worth is not determined by our academic performance or how others perceive us. Our worth is found in Christ Jesus, which we would like to share with you later.
It's important to address the notion that you feel you are "dumb" or "not smart enough." This is not how God sees you. In fact, God's Word tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14, WEB). God has given each of us unique talents and abilities, and it's crucial to remember that academic success is not the only measure of intelligence or worth.
Let's look at what the Bible says about our minds and understanding. In Romans 12:2 (WEB), it says, "Don't be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God." This verse reminds us that our minds are powerful tools that can be renewed and transformed. It also reminds us that our goal should be to seek God's will, not just academic success.
Regarding your husband's comments, it's important to remember that our words have the power to build up or tear down. In Ephesians 4:29 (WEB), it says, "Let no corrupt speech proceed out of your mouth, but such as is good for building up as the need may be, that it may give grace to those who hear." We encourage you to have an open and honest conversation with your husband about how his words have affected you, and to seek God's will together in your marriage.
Now, let's pray for your situation:
"Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our sister in Christ who is feeling overwhelmed and inadequate. Lord, we know that she is fearfully and wonderfully made, and we ask that You help her to see herself as You see her.
We pray for her exam results, that they would reflect her true abilities and efforts. But more importantly, Lord, we pray that she would find her worth and identity in You, not in her academic performance.
We also pray for her marriage, that You would help her and her husband to communicate openly and honestly, and to build each other up with their words.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. If you have not already, consider reading about Jesus and the salvation He offers. In John 3:16 (WEB), it says, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life." This is the good news of the gospel, and we encourage you to learn more about this.